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okie
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   Posted 7/11/2007 4:12 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi all, well I wanted to first say I checked with my insurance and they will cover the first 23 appts with a therapist of one kind or another. Not quite sure what would be more beneficial with all the initials after their names. So I decided I'm going to look for one close by.
Anyway some of you here said I should talk about things when I'm depressed so I thought I'd share my feelings with you. I feel like I need to get it off of my chest. It makes for boring reading so I have no expectations that it will be read lol. Anyway here goes:
Ok first o all most of you know my husband died when I was 42 years old. I'm 50 now. For years I was not interested in the slightest about having a relationship again. I'm not so shallow as to beleive that a relationship will "fix" things. The thing is I am beginning to really hunger for the companionship. I want to be able to go for long rides in the country and just set in the same room without even talking is ok. Just so I have a connection with another person that I care about. I'm tired of going to bed alone I'm tired of waking up alone. I know I am a good person and that I have alot to offer but it's hard when no one wants to get involved with someone with my health problems. If we had been together before I get sick than it would have comeon gradually. Meeting someone now I just scare them off. I don't blame them I look at myself in the mirror and all I see is an old woman with an oxygen hose. My once pretty face and hair is now little more than plastic tubing and thin brittle hair. I take off my clothe and the ugly veins that are all over my body are diffinently not somthing one would fantasize about. I still have the needs of a 50 year old woman in the body of a 80 year old. being the 5th wheel everywhere. Even going to church everyone is paired up. Unless your a kid under 12. I don't know why this had to happen to me. Alot of people told me their 40's was a wonderful time. For me my 40's were pure hell.
Well anyway that is part of what is going on with me. So I decided I need to see someone and try to work thru this stuff.
So have any of you received counseling since you got sick? did it help? what kind of counselor? Sorry if this stuff didn't make since it's 6 am and my thinker isn't working that well.
 
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carol 
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   Posted 7/11/2007 4:33 AM (GMT -7)   

Carol, you aren't the only one up at 6:00 in the morning.  I want you to know I understand your feelings.  I'm sorry about you losing your husband.  I wasn't aware of that part.  I do completely understand being 45 myself but feeling and looking a LOT older.  It is completely normal to want to have a companion around, of having someone special in your life just for "you", of wanting someone to say "Goodmorning Carol" or "Goodnight".  I have never experienced the loss of a husband but do understand the feelings you are describing in your message.  I always feel like the "fifth wheel" as well.  Seems everyone on earth has someone but me (I know that isn't true but it feels like it).  I did see a counselor for a while and yeh did talk to her about all the stuff you mention and she was able to help me work out some of the feelings I was having.  I think it is a good idea for you to do this for yourself.  I have been worried about how depressed you sound like you are becoming and talking to someone is a good idea.  It didn't help me meet the love of my life or anything like that but it did help me out of the depression and gave me some helpful life adjustments that I could use.  Keep me posted as to how you are doing.

((((((HUGS))))))

You're in my thoughts and prayers.

 


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okie
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   Posted 7/11/2007 6:46 AM (GMT -7)   

Hi Diane, thanks for responding. I actually thought about coming back on here and deleting this post. I thought it would be good to talk about it but now i'm rather embarassed. Yeah I don't have any fantasy about meeting mr right. I don't think mr right could fix me or anything either. I think most of all I really hate my body. I had a lot of neg. thoughts yesterday. Not suicidal but just hateful angry thoughts about being stuck in this body!

I'm glad you had some success with counseling. I appreciate your being open with me about it. I hope if you want someone in your life they will show up soon.

hugs

carol 


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hippimom2
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   Posted 7/11/2007 7:42 AM (GMT -7)   
Carol, I'm glad you didn't delete your post. You certainly didn't embarrass yourself here - you expressed very real and genuine and normal human feelings. I feel so bad for the loss of your husband at such a young age. I'm 40 and if I try to imagine losing my husband at this age, it's almost unbearable. I do know what you are talking about when you say it might be hard to find someone who wants to be in a relationship with someone who is ill. I honestly think that if my husband would meet me for the first time today that he wouldn't be attracted to me with the way I look - very overweight, pasty white and veins showing everywhere. Luckily, like you siad, we were together long before my illness so he can look past all the physical stuff and still love me for the person I am.

If I remember right, you don't live in a real large community which makes it even harder to meet someone. I really do hope that you will eventually meet someone who sees you for the beautiful person you really are. You are a bright, funny, caring and compassionate person and you deserve companionship and love.

As far as therapy, I did go to therapy after I got sick to deal with all of the feelings of loss and the feelings of guilt I was going through. I felt lots of guilt for not being the same mom or wife that I was prior to being sick. It did really help. For me, the most helpful thing was just being able to talk and to have my feelings validated as well as helping me through the grief and the guilt. I would recommend calling around and asking for someone who works with people with chronic illness. I don't think the initials after the name are as important as the person's experience. If you tell me some of the initials you see, I can probably tell you what they mean, although they vary some from state to state. I'd say a licensed therapist would be your best bet. You can always ask what the initials mean when you call around.

Carol, I'm glad you had the courage to post your feelings about this - there are so many things that stink about this disease and all chronic illnesses. You are always in my thoughts and prayers.

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peacesoul
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   Posted 7/11/2007 7:46 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Carol, I'm glad you didn't delete this post.
I don't normally take posts to heart, but with this one I do. I relate to you, as I am sure many others here do. My heart goes out to you.
Counseling is a wonderful tool to gaining self esteem. When my ex of 11 yrs left me, I was a mess, never got help, then 2 yrs later met a guy who was all wrong for me. I then went into counseling and it changed my life.
When you meet people out of loneliness, you tend to meet the "wrong people"!
I can tell you from experience, a relationship fixes nothing unless you are in one for the right reasons and when you love yourself.

I met someone two yrs ago who accepted me for all my "troubles", he didn't care, he fell in love with my insides. YES WOMEN, CALL THE PRESS, there are still men out there that are not shallow...haha! I would not have believed it myself had I not met my b/f.

My advice, focus on YOU and YOU only right now. Get some therapy; take care of your well being, your body, mind. Meditate, read, get some good books on self esteem and also focus on your outter image. We tend to let yourselves go when we feel like poo. I have NO Doubt you are a gorgeous woman and when you discover this, believe me, the men will come a running :-)

Sending you all good vibes.....

super hug
Jen

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   Posted 7/11/2007 8:44 AM (GMT -7)   
Carol,

I am so glad that you felt safe enough with us to write about your depression. I believe that writing about your depression, and sharing your feelings can be your first step to coming out of a dark place. I also believe that many of us have the same feelings you do but don't write about them. I do understand what you're going through, and have a lot of the same feelings you do, except that I have a supportive partner. Handling this disease is hard enough with him. Without him, I wonder where I would find the strength to go on.

I see a counselor and it really does help. As Hippi said, it helps to get your feelings out and to do so with someone who will listen to you and validate what you're feeling. A good counselor will do more than that. I know some good counselors in the Edmond and Oklahoma City areas, but don't know anyone up your way. If you want, I can ask around. Over the years I've been to several different therapists and I also have found that the letters after their name aren't nearly as important as the person themself. If you find someone and don't feel totally comfortable with them, don't waste your time.....look for someone else. It's important to find someone you click with and in whom you feel confidence. I feel confident that you will find someone good who will be able to help you.

Your signature lists Xanax as one of your meds, and I believe it's for anxiety, but I don't see that you're taking anything to help with depression. This is something you might consider discussing with your doctor. I wasn't taking anything until my parents died last year and after that my doctor prescribed Cymbalta and it has helped so much. I stopped taking it a couple of months ago and my depression returned so I asked my PCP to give me a smaller dose and that's what I'm on now but I believe I should inrease it to my original dose. I'm not telling this to recommend any particular med, but to suggest that there might be something that can help get you through these dark times.

We're all here for you Carol. And I know that somewhere out there is a man who would appreciate your sweet caring personality. You're a beautiful person, and your ability to see the humor in situations is wonderful. And one of these days the rain will stop!

Thanks for sharing. We're there for you and we care.

Hang in there.

Pat
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   Posted 7/11/2007 9:14 AM (GMT -7)   

Carol,

You should in no way feel embarrassed about talking here about your feelings.  We all know and understand about hating the bodies we got stuck with and hate this disease all the same.  We all go thru time when it just hurts a little too much or yet another doctor visit that we have to go to and seems like everything is going wrong and it gets us down.  You are not alone.  I have not lost all hope of meeting Mr. Right but, you know, I'm okay with that too.  That is what part of my counseling was about - not having someone in my life and how I should deal with it.  I have my family and friends and that is okay with me at this point in my life.  Yeh, like you, I see all the happy couples and wish it were me and such.  It's normal human emotion.  I am glad you posted as I am sure there are others just like me and you that feel the same way.  It's not anything to be embarrassed or ashamed of.  I suffer from major anxiety.  I take my Xanax and it helps some.  We, unfortunately, have to live with this disease and if talking to a counselor or psychiatrist or someone else helps us deal with this, then we should.  I hope you can find someone who is familiar with your disease and can help you somehow find some peace of mind with your life.  If you need us, we are here.  You are never alone.

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   Posted 7/11/2007 9:24 AM (GMT -7)   
(((Carol)))

I'm also glad you didn't delete this post. You are a really special lady!! I think that you have so many qualities that you will meet that someone and he will be a real lucky man. Since you just started thinking about this, it may be that you didn't have the mindset to meet someone. Does your church have a single club? I think some do or maybe there is something similar in the community. I think that once someone gets to know the real you, they will know how special you are. I have known so many people that may be attractive on the outside but when I get to know them are the ugliest people I ever met and the other way around too.

I'm so happy that you are going to get some help in counseling. I know that you have been down for a while and to talk about it and get it out, I'm sure that you can release a lot of the pressure on you and it may make you feel better physically. We love you dearly Carol and want the best for you. Please continue talking to us about anything that is on your mind. I enjoy reading your posts, you are sweet, caring, and have a wonderful sense of humor. :-)

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okie
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   Posted 7/11/2007 10:48 AM (GMT -7)   

Hi Hippi, Jen, Pat, Diane, and Des.

Once again you guys have come to my rescue. I was so close to hitting the delete button. Than I thought No Carol you can't set here and do nothing and expect to miraculously get better. I truly do feel safe with you. I just didn't want you to think I had vision of a man making everything in my life ok again. Well I do believe one man can but he walked on water. I've been on the phone looking under psychiatrist and psychlogist and counselors and no one close by takes my insurance. I thought about asking my pastor but my brother is the associate pastor there and I really don't think I'd feel comfortable. Nor do I think they are qualified with dealing with chronic disease. I don't want to travel 2 hours to see a doctor every week or two that's just not realistic.

Pat you mentioned not seeing anything for depression. That is what the effexor is for. They recently increased it from 75mil. to 150 mil. I sometimes think it made things worse. I started taking trazadone after my brother commited suicide. It gave me the screaming meemies. I had the most vivid nightmares I couldn't take it. prozac did nothing either. neither did welbutrin. or busbar. Unfortunately depresssion runs in my family. I have cousins, uncles and brother that all commited suicide. I'm not suicidal though. Probably because I continue to strive for somthing better. I have not given up hope.

Des my church has about 50 people in it. there are only about 2000 in my town and about 8 churches. welcome to the bible belt! Most of the people here are much older than I am. All though once ya hit fifty a 75 year old man with one foot in the grave and lots of money starts looking pretty good! yeah LOL Just lightening the mood here.

Jen, you nailed that one with the not taking care of myself when I feel like garbage. I don't even put my teeth in unless I have to go somewhere. I have started do some excercises though. I went from a 36 inch waste to a 33 in waste in the past 3 weeks. So I'm down to wearing my size 11 jeans. Of course I can't breath in them but I can button em! LOL.

Diane, I'm so glad you were able to get counseling. I hope mr.right does come along for you. On the possitive side of not having a man around you don't have to worry about falling in the toilet in the dark cuz someone left the seat up!

Hippi your right I lived in a small town before now I live in an even smaller town now. But when I stayed with my folks in phoenix I was to ashamed about how I looked to even go any where. I really appreciate all your support and information. It means alot to me to have you share your feelings. I'm sure you are a wonderful mom and wife. Even if we can't do all the things we used to do that doesn't change who we are. From all your compassionate replies I'm sure your family loves and appreciates you.

Well I guess I better get back to the phone book. I put in a call and got an emergency number. They said I needed to call back during business hours. I said well when is that? She said I don't know??????? So she took a message for me. But it sure didn't sound to promising.

wish me luck

thank you all again

love

carol


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   Posted 7/11/2007 11:17 AM (GMT -7)   
okie said...

Hi Hippi, Jen, Pat, Diane, and Des.

Jen, you nailed that one with the not taking care of myself when I feel like garbage. I don't even put my teeth in unless I have to go somewhere. I have started do some excercises though. I went from a 36 inch waste to a 33 in waste in the past 3 weeks. So I'm down to wearing my size 11 jeans. Of course I can't breath in them but I can button em! LOL.

love

carol

LOL....hahah. You are funny! That made me LOL. It doesn't matter if you can't breath, all that matters is how you look!..haha!

That is awesome that you're exercising. That is SO SO important!
Do it even when you're feeling bad. It's a natural drug.
Now, we need to talk about your teeth. I say put em in girl.
When I am home and feeling yuck, I still try to shower and get myself decent, that alone makes you feel better.
 
 
Carol, you can do therapy by phone. Some therapists will do phone counseling.
If you cannot find help soon, can you get to a library or do you have the funds to order some books?

okie
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   Posted 7/11/2007 5:39 PM (GMT -7)   

Hi Jen, I know I should put my teeth in but I get sores on my gums and it hurts. Plus I have a bad habit with my anxiety to clamp my teeth together. Your are right that when I exercise it does seem to make me feel a bit better. I also noticed it keeps me from being so hungry. I assume it has somthing to do with kicking in fat burning metabolism. I actually had read that exercise can curb your appetite. I have a library 2 miles from my house and I am much more willing to check out the library first before paying out good money for a book. especially on a limited budget. If you have a title I can get it out at the library. I didn't have any luck finding a counselor that takes my insurance yet.

 

hugs

carol


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peacesoul
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   Posted 7/12/2007 4:49 AM (GMT -7)   
Ok Carol, I read a few books from this therapist her name is Barbara De Angelis. Every book I read from her changed my life. She is concise and makes a ton of sense.
I went from a "mess" (had trauma in my life as well) to a functioning happier person (not fully there yet), b/c of the help I got from reading (and yes some therapy).
Here is link to Amazon, you can chose from there the titles you would like to read, then take this list to your library and see if they have any of these. Trust me, you will not regret it.

http://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_ss_b/105-3557868-9937262?initialSearch=1&
url=search-alias%3Dstripbooks&field-keywords=Barbara+De+Angelis&Go.x=13&Go.y=10

Also, I read the book "Depression is a Choice" The title may throw most ppl off. But this is one of the best books about depression. Search for the title at Amazon's site also. Or google the book title. There are reviews and input on this book all over the net.
I got all my books from the library so I'm sure they will have most at yours.

Right now, I'm listening to the book version of The Secret. Not sure if you heard of this book, but it's a popular book (they also have a DVD out) and this also has changed many ppl. The conecpt of this book is on positive thinking.

Let me know what you discover at the library. Reading saved my sanity and helped me get back on track. I hope it does the same for you.

Love

Jen

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peacesoul
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   Posted 7/13/2007 9:22 AM (GMT -7)   
Carol, here is a letter from my loacl Montreal paper. Thought it may inspire you to keep up with your exercise.
I've been working out at the gym for 8 1/2 yrs and it changed my life and I'm sure made the effects of my lupus less severe.

Exercise cures pain
Letter
Published: 9 hours ago
Re: "Hurting? Call in the painkillers" (Gazette, July 11).

Living with a man who once could not put on his own socks because of herniated discs above two other herniated discs removed 10 years earlier, I have seen pain. I also have ached somewhere on my body 90 per cent of the time (skin, joints, back).

But since we joined a fitness club and had professional kinesiologists analyze our individual situations and set us up with personal supervised programs, my man now works at a golf course and I no longer have "pain on my mind 24/7."

The first treatment for pain should be a proper exercise program. With a qualified kinesiologist, peace will reign again over your pain.

Leslie Stobo

St. Jean sur Richelieu
 
 
Jen

monkeyme
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   Posted 7/13/2007 9:52 AM (GMT -7)   
Carol you are so precious! I am lagging behind on reading posts so I just read yours. What an example for all of us. Why should we feel ashamed of the feelings and problems in our lives. We are all human beings trying our very best to get through some really tough things. What a different place the world would be if we all didn't try to pretend everything is just great when it isn't.

First I wanted to recommend a book. Its called "You are not your illness" by Linda Noble Topf, M.A. I still read and re-read it just to remind me that I am more than what is going on with my illness.

A second recommendation would be faith based, I know of several places on the internet that have audio "sermons" that are really uplifting. Not sure if I should post the links though. When I am feeling really down and depressed I listen to one or two and feel renewed. Let me know if you would like me to email you them privately or maybe the mods would let me know if I could post them here for you.

Everyone had such good advice! I hope that you find a counselor that clicks with you. Its hard in such a small town. Someone mentioned phone appointments and that might be a good option for you too. I know that they even have Internet counseling now, where you chat live with the counselor.

Will be praying that you find what works for you, and praying for sunshine instead of clouds in that wonderful head of yours.

Darlene
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petuniablue
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   Posted 7/13/2007 10:16 AM (GMT -7)   
Carol,

I also am so glad you didn't delete the post I saw it night before last but was not feeling well my self, but I wanted you to know how very much we all understand and that you are most certainly loved . You are a terrific lady . I know what it is like to fight depression I have been fighting it since by early 20's and I turned 48 yesterday.I am so sorry you lost your husband at such a young age how tragic the must have been for you. I think it might be a good idea to talk to your PCP and see if he or she might ad something to help you in the mean time.I hope you find a great counselor if you do it can make a world of difference. It sounds like you may have to commute to get their all I can say about that is if it helps you it is worth your time. Please keep us all posted and take care of yourself if you ever need to talk email me. I like many have become attached to you you are part of the cohesiveness of this forum.

I better run for now but will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.....I go to my 1st rheumy appt 7/25 and already an scared and nervous but know it must be done.


Blessings to you

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   Posted 7/14/2007 11:54 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Carol--
I'm so sorry to hear about your husband. I can't begin to understand that pain. On the loneliness side I went through something similar, kids leaving home not staying in touch, even through surgeries, boyfriend that is "on probation" with me most of the time and I threw him out for months recently. I got very very depressed and very lonely. didn't dress, didn't leave the house. I have skin pigment problems to add to being overweight and surgery scars and dry, dry hair. I felt so bad about myself. Then, one day I decided to do the online thing, just for chats if nothing else and took some pictures of myself with my webcam and I didn't look near as bad as I felt, once the old makeup was on and all. Of course, I staged and lighted it all good and dressed to hide my buddha belly. But anyway, I did the online thing and found there were plenty of men even in my little area, it cost me about 30.00 through yahoo and not all were duds. In one month, I cancelled, I had so many responses and I found illness wasn't a big deal with them. You really have to sort through, many just want one thing, but some are very nice and just want to date. Strangely enough, I met a pretty nice guy, but on a date I realized my boyfriend really did love me and treats me ok most of the time and I loved him, so I ended up taking the poor guy back and he was happy to be back. Its funny, but sometimes even if you are with someone it can get lonely, numb-like and you wonder if you really even care about the other person, you've been together so long. Don't mean to ramble, but thought I'd let you know about the online thing. I bet you'd see half your small town on there. A bunch of our firefighters and stuff were on there. I got sick of it pretty fast and was happy to be alone, I had three guys that were contenders and they didn't care a hoot about me being sick. They were just lonely, like me. So, don't worry, they are out there if you want them, and if you get sick of being alone, check it out. It will definitely make you appreciate your solitude. I would just like to have a female neighbor friend to drink coffee with and play cards or chat or watch soaps or something. A good female roomate/friend would be my first choice if I end up alone again. Men are too much work.
Love, Marji
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   Posted 7/15/2007 7:47 PM (GMT -7)   
OH....YEAH!!!! Carol....I see someone and he told me that depression cames with lupus. Because you think about all the things you can't do anymore. So, it is like losing a big part of ones life.

It will help very much. Now like anything else...it may take a couple doctors to find one you can work with...
The frist one I went to....I just wanted to **** him. He wasn't good for me.

Take care of yourself and enjoy what you can....
PLAQUENIL, FLEXERIL, CELEBREX - UCTD, BENICAR - HIGH BP, SINGULAIR - ALLERGIES, REQUIP RESTLESS LEG SYNDROME, LEVITRA, AND METROGEL FOR ROSACEA 
Enjoy what you can today and leave the rest for another day.
 
Frank
 

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