Hi lonelylymie, welcome to the board! I am sorry you have been sick for so long and unable to get help. Often when doctors cannot or will not find out what is wrong, they blame the patient. You are not crazy, dealing with this disease is crazy. We understand how you feel.
Below is a Lyme symptom list. You can have any combination of symptoms.
When Lyme disease is a possibility, it is very important to see a knowledgeable doctor. Many doctors do not understand Lyme and treat with outdated protocols. No test is completely reliable, and results can vary by lab. Besides Lyme, ticks can also transmit several co-infections including Babesiosis, two types of Ehrlichiosis (HME & HGE), Bartonella, and Mycoplasma.
Do you have any family who could help you? I found the following Lyme support group listed for IN:
This may be a good source for information.
It is also important to learn as much as possible. I recommend reading Dr. Joseph Burrascano's 2005 Diagnostic Hints and Treatment Guidelines For Lyme and Other Tick Borne Illnesses at http://www.ilads.org/burrascano_0905.html He is one of the top Lyme doctors in the country, and many Lyme doctors follow his protocols. I also recommend the book "Everything You Need To Know about Lyme Disease (2nd edition)" by Karen Vanderhoof-Forschner and "The Lyme Disease Solution" by Kenneth B. Singleton MD.
Hang in there okay? This is a great place for support.