I cannot believe this is happening right now. I have been doing so well off abx and with my new baby by my side enjoying life. Up until about 2 weeks following a bad flu, my lyme came back strong so I decided to start abx again 2 days ago. Whao. I am in the worst herx and I can't even get out of bed today. Thank God I have family to help me with the baby, but even yesterday wasn't like today. I know this all too well (diagnosed in 1999 and on meds for 30 months before I was completely well. Stayed well for 3 years and then relapsed. Back on meds for 12 months. Got better. Got pregnant. On amox. during pregnacy. Great after pregnancy and now 8 months later, another relapse and back on meds). I never expected this to happen and I am really scared because I am usually the one here to help others to tell them you can get well and go back to a normal life. I know because I did it. It took time, but I did it and now I feel like I need the help this time. I can't take care of my daughter right now and I don't know what to do. Do I stay on the meds and feel this horrible or just stop and go back to having some good days and some not so good days. If I continue to go downhill with the medicine, I just don't know how I am going to make it through the long winter to come. I am having such a bad bad day. This might just be the worst possible thing to happen right now. If I didn't have a baby, I could just worry about myself. How do you moms do this when you are so sick. Making a bottle today is like running a marathon.