I AM LIKE A CAR!!
i describe to my family that I am like a car.
Alot of the time I am parked and dead.
Then intermittenly I try to start up and will turn over but I do not start. Darn
Other times I actually start up for about
a minute before shutting down again and smoke comes out of my muffler and is black and stinky.
And then I sometimes can actually start up and drive around town for a trip to the store. Exciting
Sometimes I will not start again when I come out of the store and sometimes I will.
Then sometimes i have to get jumped with some jumper cables and wave a car down to help me.
Well I end up having hope as I keep adding oil and the best gas I can find.
I check the tires pressure fill up the radiator with water
I can sometimes start up and drive around and make it back home.
It is frustrating has heck to not know what will happen each time I go out to start the car
But I keep on trying
I have been to the shop and tried a tune up. Nothing changed
I tried to get diagnosed at 5 different mechanics and they all say something different.
I get quotes from 50 to 500000 to try to get myself fixed. It thought iis still a guess.
So i just keep on doing the best I can with what I know and ..
I comes through here and there and I keep trying and I get around to where I need
I somehow still do not know how to fix me ..
And neither does anyone else
I am cold at night and sad sitting alone on the street not sure if I will start or not.
I am anxious and frustrated and I want to run smooth and start every time
I want to shine and I want to impress and I want to run and run and run.
I will keep working on myself and I will not give up and turn myself in for scrap.
I feel like a car and when I talk about
it this way.. It makes so much sense.
From feeling dead
To feeling like I will rev and start up and turn over
To getting started to just die
To taking a trip here and there
and then not knowing what it will be like that day or week or month
Not know how to fix it for sure and so many opinions
THat is ME and That is a car...
My 76 Datsun 280 Z .. we are the same..
She is red with a rash even
Post Edited (KeepHope) : 3/8/2009 1:49:54 AM (GMT-7)