ok cajungirl - the fear of driving really struck home. i get tremendous moments of buzzing anxiety and will have to talk to myself when driving on the highway. i have been taking the train lately to avoid this uncomfortable feeling. and depresssion? i had a nurse call me from my insurance company to discuss the "connections" prgram. she asked about
depression and offered to send me a list of anti-depressant medications and this brochure on coping with depression. i lyme raged at this nurse saying that yes i was depressed and i was
open to medication but i did not want to "cope" with the depression as that implies that the depression stands separate from my lyme disease or worse. may be the casue of it. i am little oversensitive to any implications that my symptoms are caused by my mental state. but of course, i do have dark days - sad and angry that my health is where it is. and i also thought i had gotten myself to the point where i was coping with my lyme disease i.e., i was off antibioitcs for 1 year+, heavy into physical therapy and managing my remaining symptoms - accepting that 85% of who i was was the best i would get. unfortunately, i got a cortisone injection in my neck - thinking it would be great to get some relief. i fell apart after this injection...my lyme symptoms came raging back and i felt like i was back on square one. so yes, this is depressing. and my herxing is so bad the doctor has cut me back to half the needed dose of doxy, which worries me becasue i want to get better FAST. i do not need to cope with my depression i need to get rid of my lyme disease and the depression will go away.