Old feelings coming back....still very hurt and angry!

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CajunGrl
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   Posted 6/7/2009 6:21 AM (GMT -6)   
I'm so tired of people being selfish. I used to have this friend and we were very close, like sisters. We knew everything about each other....the good and the bad. I was there for her ALOT. I used to drive her all over and even pay for her and her kids meals when we went somewhere because she was always broke. I didn't mind though. Well, I started getting sick with Lyme, but didn't know what was going on back then. Slowly, I stopped going over or anywhere she invited me because I was always sick. She met this new friend and they started going out together all the time, which didn't bother me until I brought a mardi gras dress to her house so that her daughter could wear it to school because she had won mardi gras queen and I'm sitting there, feeling and looking like crap when this "new friend" shows up. She's all dressed up and goes straight to my friends room to touch up her makeup....which I found unusual since they had just met. I mean, she acted like it was her room. Anyway, I find out that they are both going to a family get together. It was my friends family get together that I had never been to or invited to. It felt like a knife had been stuck straight in my heart. I was very upset. I pretty much went off on her and we had never fought before. She couldn't understand why I was so hurt and after a while, she apologised. Well, we used to talk almost everyday before and after this happened, the calls stopped. I asked her about that and I told her I was hurt. I had been in the hospital and she didn't even know. Never called me or anything. I was very hurt and didn't understand what was going on. I wrote her an email telling her how I felt. It wasn't ugly at all. She blamed me for EVERYTHING and told me I was just like her aunt that always wants attention. Huh? I can't even express myself? Everything was changing and I couldn't even ask why. By the way, her aunt was a drug user and commuter suicide. Yep, in her eyes, I was just like her. I don't even do drugs besides the ones I am prescribed for Lyme. She said I was ruining everything and making her husband and my husband mad at each other. Great! Well, I was NEVER ugly to her. I even showed my husband the email I sent her and he agreed. I wound up apologizing to her anyway!! Just to keep the peace. Well, ever since then, we haven't been close. We did a few things together but never like it used to be. I mean, her and her husband would sleep at our house. We were all so close. This was almost a year and a half ago and I'm still hurt and very angry. She has NEVER asked how I was....EVER!!!! I had no closure what so ever and I just want to tell her off most of the time. I truly hate her now and I hate that she makes me so miserable. I hate that she feels good and has good health when she did me so wrong. Why do I still feel this way? It is really bad, especially when I am really feeling sick. I'm not a mean person at all but I seriously want to punch her square inthe face. Is this the Lyme talking? Why can't I mend from this?

I'm sorry to ramble so much but I just needed to vent. If you got this far, thanks for reading.
2003 symptoms started;panic attacks,anxiety,heightened senses.
2007 Diagnosed with Lyme. Didn't start treatment.
2008 symptoms came back with a vengence.
2009 Diagnosed with Lyme plus co-infections....Babesia and Bartonella.
Illnesses: -Chronic Lyme Disease,Hashimotos Thyroiditis, Ulcers, Hypoglycemia
Medications: -Biaxin 250mg to start,Mepron,Ultram,Thyro Complex 60mg,Probiotics and supplements


3whiteroses
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   Posted 6/7/2009 7:18 AM (GMT -6)   
I'm sorry you have to experience this pain while feeling sick. Unfortunately people who don't have Lyme disease do not understand how horrible it makes one feel. I have had friends that I have been close to and at one point we changed paths. I believe that she was meant to be in your life for whatever time, but now you are meant to be in someone else's life. Sometimes we don't understand when bad things happen, but I have learned that something good will come in the end. It is normal for feel the way that you do right now, and you will get better, and you will be able put those feelings behind you. In the end you will be greatful...if she was truly your friend she would stand by you no matter what - that is what friends do.

Hang in there - you don't need the stress in your life. It is not helping you heal.

Warm Regards

Angela

CajunGrl
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   Posted 6/7/2009 7:29 AM (GMT -6)   
The wounds keep being re-opened because my husband is still friends with her husband and my daughter goes there to sleep. She is even the nanny to my youngest daughter. I have told my husband out of anger that he needs to stick up for me and say something. I even told him it's either me or his friend. It was all out of anger. I don't know how to heal from this. It's been over a year! It eats me up over and over. I know my husband probably thinks Im crazy for still feeling like this but I just can't let it go. What is wrong with me?
2003 symptoms started;panic attacks,anxiety,heightened senses.
2007 Diagnosed with Lyme. Didn't start treatment.
2008 symptoms came back with a vengence.
2009 Diagnosed with Lyme plus co-infections....Babesia and Bartonella.
Illnesses: -Chronic Lyme Disease,Hashimotos Thyroiditis, Ulcers, Hypoglycemia
Medications: -Biaxin 250mg to start,Mepron,Ultram,Thyro Complex 60mg,Probiotics and supplements


+Lyme
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   Posted 6/7/2009 10:45 AM (GMT -6)   
I am sorry, CG. I believe the expectation of yourself 'letting it go' is a little too much for you right now. Still, you will need to find a way to not allow it to eat at you like it is. There are soooo many people who just don't know how to handle those w/ chronic illnesses. Even tho it's completely irrational, I think they may feel that your disease has become more important than them in YOUR life.

I have lost a lot of friends along the way in my life and it has always been my fault. A lot of it is depression and I'm sorry about it.

On one hand, they get angry w/ me because I do not call them, or go out to hang out and drink anymore or (at the place I used to work), etc. On the other hand, I could get angry myself, because they don't want to do things like have a normal visit or meet for lunch, but I don't feel like getting angry. They act as if I have deserted them because I'm not going out to meet them at a bar or drink w/ them. Yet no one's asked to visit me, and my invitations to walk w/ me in the woods at the dog park, are declined.

I have (had) one good friend who called me not long ago, just to say hey and to 'catch up'. She told me how wonderful her life is: She is married, he spends all his money on her, she has a great job, she makes a lot of $$, she shops a lot and was looking to buy some fancy expensive car. I don't resent any of that, I swear to God. These things mean nothing to me. I do find it a little shallow, esp knowing what an A hole the guy she married is. But if he provides her money, hey, that's good enough for her.

Anyway, so when she asked how I was, sorry, it was a bad day. I tried to state this matter of fact, not pitiful or of any expectation of pity or sympathy. I stated it because I have been out of touch w/ everyone. I just told her I was ill and going thru a tough time w/ depression and pain and that I was sorry to be out of touch.

Well, 'Great talking to you again, gotta go! By the way, could you ask your daughter (the bank manager) what kind of deal she can get me on a car loan?' Great friend, huh? Yet we went thru so much together, back when we were single moms, supporting our kids alone, waiting tables. I was her hero because I taught her how to make more money by leaving personal problems at home, ignorning physical pain, hustling, and carrying nothing but positive energy.

As WhiteRoses said, others do not understand how sick you are. They don't have any idea of what all this means. I am nowhere as sick as you, yet I feel ill and am in pain all day every day. I have to work, and so I do what I can with it. I do all that I can to not let all my negativity show while I am working, because the ladies I work w/ are, frankly, B's, constantly stabbing people in the back, judging everyone else, even constantly b'ing at me and each other. I refuse to be negative like that at work. Yet how do I get them to understand how horrible I am feeling?

I know in my heart that I do not care what they think of me. (I DO care about the lies they tell our boss about me!). Yet, because I am ill and because of depression, I often go home in tears because of the hateful way one has treated me, or a lie one has told me about myself to my face. Still, I certainly do not want their pity!

I mostly feel that I want people to know what I am going thru, not to get pity or attention or sympathy, because I do not want those things. But, you know, when you are sick, and fighting your way thru it in spite of it all, it would be nice if someone understood and maybe at least cut you a little slack or gave you a little credit, or at least act like they cared and respected you for carrying on.

I don't know what to do -- maybe you guys can tell me what you do around your family and friends? I do not want my kids feeling sorry for me. But I want them to understand that I am ill, so that their expectations of me aren't quite so high, and maybe they could cut me a little slack when I'm being negative.

Think about it: If someone in your life constantly complained and ran it into the ground, 'I am so sick. Do you understand I am sick. I could become disabled. I could die.' I don't want to be that person. It's gotten bad enough w/ my daughter, who honestly believes me and takes this very seriously (she is taking me to my first LLMD appt), but she doesn't WANT to hear about it all the time.

Don't all of us just want to be taken seriously?

Still, CG, try to imagine your friend(s) if you had something like terminal cancer -- no more serious than Lyme, but something she could better understand. What do you think she would do?

People are people -- we are all so imperfect, as is your 'friend' (ex?). I think you should try to let as much negativity and anger go, but not your friend, in your heart. If she was a true friend, hold onto her in your heart, and try waiting for her. Maybe she will ask for your forgiveness someday, or maybe you will learn she was not worth the pain of waiting for.

Keep remembering that you do NOT want her to come back and be your friend because of pity, do you? I don't think this is what we want or need from our friends. Maybe sometime you could try calling her and telling her that you just need someone to talk to and that you always felt like you could talk to her. Something like that. Maybe tell her a little of what you are feeling, without being angry.

Or maybe you could write her a letter? In a letter, you can say what you want/need to say without being interrupted and without your words or actions being twisted in any way. Don't be angry -- showing jealousy of a new friend will only cause more friction. Just tell her how you feel and that you care very much for her and feel abandoned and you feel like it is your disease that has caused this.

In one list of Lyme symptoms I read 'loss of friends' because of depression and losing interest or ability in all the old activities.
Lyme in NC in 1971? Suspect TBI: Fully engorged tick followed by high fever and tonsillitis. Follwed by , lumps on neck,  chronic tonsillits w/ constant low grade to recurring high (104) fevers, severe unexplained neck stiffness and acute neck pain.   Followed by tonsillectomy, urinary tract infections, miscarriage, appendicitis while pregant, chronic severe back pain. Followed by depression, mild anxiety, mitral valve prolapse, and hypglycemia.  What was this??
 
Bit again couple of times, lyme suspect bite Mother's Day 2007. Bite, symptoms, lyme specific antibodies on the most lyme specific band of all = 39 IgG.  Still awaiting appt w/ LLMD.


Dowa
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   Posted 6/7/2009 11:27 AM (GMT -6)   
CG: Something I have learned the hard way since being sick , dont waste your time on people that do not understand, they never will. Its that simple. Sorry for your pain. D

RottenDog
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   Posted 6/7/2009 12:16 PM (GMT -6)   
I belive this is somthing we can all relate to in some fourm or fasion. its never easy to think of your former friends leaven you. but I have also gone thro this. but I also have made new friends out of it. and belive it or not. I finially meet my nestest neightbor who moved in like 4 months ago. I just meet her a few weeks ago. took me that long to feel well enough to walk over. anyways after chating with her I found out she also had lyme. and she to lost most all of her friends and some family to lyme.

there is a old saying that goes something like this, your ture friends will stick with you no matter what, and the ones who leave you in a lerch where never your friend at all. in times of need your ture friends are there even though you may not know it.
and CG you have a friend in me :) you are not alone as long as we have HW.

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Agmaar
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   Posted 6/7/2009 1:09 PM (GMT -6)   
The things you are feeling are typical of those learning to live with chronic illness.   I just went on long term disability.  I was very relieved because I don't have to worry about returning to a work situation I coulnd't handle right now and at least we know what the next few months will be like.  But .... when the paperwork finally came ... I had a real sense of loss.  I was surprised it was so strong since I haven't been well for a long time.  It motivated me to do a little reading on coping with chronic illness and social isolation.  I found this article which may help:
 
 
A few suggestions -
 
find a support group for people with chonice illness (doesn't have to be Lyme group)
 
find someone else with a chonic condition that you can talk to
 
therapy can help immensely with all the changes that have been forced on you - it's helped me a lot
 
And just an observation ... usually no one else can make us msierable .. we make ourselves miserable. 
 
Really, finding even one person with a chonic illness to talk to can help so much.  I found out that my neighbor has Fibro.  She is so relieved that she can talk to me about it without getting the "eye roll", "yeah, right", "I'm tired and sore too" etc. responses.  She says that she's given up even telling other people she has Fibro.  I ask her how she's feeling and what helps, and she listens to how I'm doing and what I'm worried about.
 
 
 
 
Rich
 
Lyme, anxitey, depression, chronic C. Pnuemoniae
 
"... expect the unexpected ..."  (O. Wilde)
 
"I am an old man and have known a great many troubles, but most of them never happened." (Mark Twain)
 
 


forestcall
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   Posted 6/8/2009 1:26 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi-

My personal way of dealing with things is through Buddhism. Buddhism is wonderful because contrary to popular belief it is NOT a Religion, but a "way of thinking". You can be Christian and practice Buddhist philosophy. I am seldom unhappy as long as I keep my view "correct". This is an important process in dealing with all the life obstacles we are presented with. In my humble opinion getting Lyme disease is a wonderful blessing and profound opportunity to achieve a "learned" state of mind; a sincere personal wisdom. Lyme is like a teacher of patience and "letting-go" as user +LYME mentioned in his/her post :-)

My apologies if I sound preachy but there is no need to be unhappy. It is like there is a large bottle of water inches from your grasp and you need only open the water bottle and drink to cure your thirst.

Good fortune to you!!! :-)
Bitten 30+ times from 1995 - 2001
2001 Bite swelled up like a soccer ball
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Post Edited (forestcall) : 6/8/2009 6:30:44 PM (GMT-6)


JELAINEP
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   Posted 6/8/2009 5:52 PM (GMT -6)   
ALL MY FRIENDS ARE GONE.... EXCEPT THE FEW WHO KINDA ROSE TO THE OCCASION - I LOVE THEM... AND THEY ARE NOT WHO I EXPECTED TO STICK WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed citizens can change the world. Indeed, it's the only thing that ever has.  - Margaret Meade
06/00- The beginning, 08/01-LD positive, 10/01- Igenex and CDC LD positive, 10/02-LD positive, 11/03-LD positive, 10/07-Bartonella positive, CD57=3, possibly just tested positive for koseri IgA, Morganella motgani,Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever (RMSF - yay! another acronym), Typhus Fever, Klebsiella pneumonia, Proteus miabilis, Citrobacter i IgA, Hafnia alvai IgA, NKC4, Interleukin 4 (IL4), IL8, Immunobillin (IM01). 
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scorpio1960
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   Posted 6/8/2009 6:10 PM (GMT -6)   
Oh CajunGrl, I'm so sorry this so-called friend hurt you so badly. I've been trying to respond to your post since yesterday but every time I try to I get so overwhelmed with both anger and sadness. I've also been hurt and feel totally abandoned by those who I considered to be my closest friends and family. You're fortunate to have your wonderful husband's support and now you have a group of new friends here who understand what you're going through too. It's your friend's loss and trust me one day she will realize it and be sorry.

3whiteroses
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   Posted 6/8/2009 6:48 PM (GMT -6)   
I hope you are feeling better today...Hopefully venting helped you feel better.

CajunGrl
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   Posted 6/8/2009 7:32 PM (GMT -6)   
Omg, all you are so awesome! I'm about to cry! I didn't think I would get this much support. I thought that maybe you would all think I was crazy for holding on to something for so long. Thank you all so much for all of your support. I really needed to see a different side of things. Sometimes, I wish I was like my old self and just didn't care if someone liked me or not. I'm way too sensitive now and this disease doesn't help in that area one bit. I truly wish I could meet each and every one of you and give you all BIG HUGS!! And omg, I can't believe you all even read that long babble, LOL. I am very blessed to have all of you and even though I've never met any of you, I consider you all a friend.

Love you guys!!
2003 symptoms started;panic attacks,anxiety,heightened senses.
2007 Diagnosed with Lyme. Didn't start treatment.
2008 symptoms came back with a vengence.
2009 Diagnosed with Lyme plus co-infections....Babesia and Bartonella.
Illnesses:-Chronic Lyme Disease,Hashimotos Thyroiditis, Ulcers, Hypoglycemia
Medications:-Biaxin 250mg to start,Mepron,Ultram,Thyro Complex 60mg,Probiotics and supplements


3whiteroses
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   Posted 6/8/2009 8:03 PM (GMT -6)   
We all need someone to listen to us....and we all need to feel like someone cares about us.

*Hugs*

CajunGrl
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   Posted 6/8/2009 8:28 PM (GMT -6)   
Thanks 3whiteroses. You are very sweet. I appreciate all of you here. If I can help you in way, please let me know.

Hugs!
2003 symptoms started;panic attacks,anxiety,heightened senses.
2007 Diagnosed with Lyme. Didn't start treatment.
2008 symptoms came back with a vengence.
2009 Diagnosed with Lyme plus co-infections....Babesia and Bartonella.
Illnesses:-Chronic Lyme Disease,Hashimotos Thyroiditis, Ulcers, Hypoglycemia
Medications:-Biaxin 250mg to start,Mepron,Ultram,Thyro Complex 60mg,Probiotics and supplements

Post Edited (CajunGrl) : 6/8/2009 9:32:16 PM (GMT-6)


scorpio1960
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   Posted 6/8/2009 8:32 PM (GMT -6)   
When you are feeling better, you will go on to meet new friends who are worthy of your friendship. I'm sure this friend was someone you would have turned to and vented to in the past. Well, now we're here for you.

CajunGrl
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   Posted 6/8/2009 9:35 PM (GMT -6)   
Scorpio,

Thank you so much! I had such an overwhelming amount of support. I would seriouly be alone and heart broken if I didn't have all of you here. My husband is great but he can only take so much sometimes.

You need to get a Myspace so we can chat there too!
2003 symptoms started;panic attacks,anxiety,heightened senses.
2007 Diagnosed with Lyme. Didn't start treatment.
2008 symptoms came back with a vengence.
2009 Diagnosed with Lyme plus co-infections....Babesia and Bartonella.
Illnesses:-Chronic Lyme Disease,Hashimotos Thyroiditis, Ulcers, Hypoglycemia
Medications:-Biaxin 250mg to start,Mepron,Ultram,Thyro Complex 60mg,Probiotics and supplements


scorpio1960
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   Posted 6/9/2009 7:39 AM (GMT -6)   
One of these days I will get a myspace. lol

Turquoise Sky
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   Posted 6/9/2009 9:57 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi! Sorry I didn't get on here yesterday to see this. Even when I'm not on here I am thinking and praying for you and the others who are having such a hard time. I want to be considered your friend, because you have shown such caring for everyone else on here! I think we tend to take things so personally because we do care so much!

When you think of this person who hurt you, try to remember that she is on her own journey of life and has to learn her own life lessons in her own way and in her own time. You are not responsible for her, only yourself. Also, think of all of us on here who do CARE about you even if we never get to meet! BTW, I cried for you when I read your post!

pcpc
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   Posted 6/9/2009 3:35 PM (GMT -6)   
I love this thread. I have been so pissed since becoming sick at how little support I received from my supposed "best" friend and I am so happy to share what I did. I was tired of having my emotions sway up and down depending on her calls/visits or lack there of. I decided that I wanted to end all contact for now to stop emotional turmoil and expending energy thinking about her so I sent her this email. It was empowering to me to finally feel that I was in control.

"Dear _____, I never got your phone message and am not checking emails regularly. Please don't take this personally. As you know, I have been going through a very difficult time and right now for my healing process I am pulling inside and need some personal space. If you want to be in touch email at this address is best but I may not get back to you. I just need some time to be alone and heal. Thank you for understanding. With love, me"

The reason that I was so nice is that I didn't want to deal with any drama that would have arisen in telling her how I actually felt. I have left the door open for future contact ( which I doubt I will do). I am changing from having gone through this journey- for the better I believe. I am learning to take control and choose better friends!

3whiteroses
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   Posted 6/9/2009 3:50 PM (GMT -6)   
The journey definitely changes us....most people do not understand what it feels like to have Lyme. They look at your outer appearnance and think everything is okay.

My husband is my best friend and I feel so greatful that he is standing beside me.....I only hope my illness does not drag him down.

CajunGrl
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   Posted 6/10/2009 3:39 AM (GMT -6)   
Turquoise,

I didn't mean to make you cry! I definitely would consider YOU and everyone here a friend. You made a whole lot of sense in your post and it really got me thinking. You're so right about her learning her own life lessons in her own way. I do know that when we do others wrong, we get a little wake up call of our own. I have been thinking real hard about the friends I will let in my life now. I will not deal with bullshi* anymore. If someone doesn't like me for who I am and what I have in my heart, then to hell with them. I'm just not doing it anymore. It had put such a black cloud over my head for way too long. I am ready for the sun to shine in!! And you know what? It is her loss. I have so much to give and I have a good heart.

I'm ready to heal:)
2003 symptoms started;panic attacks,anxiety,heightened senses.
2007 Diagnosed with Lyme. Didn't start treatment.
2008 symptoms came back with a vengence.
2009 Diagnosed with Lyme plus co-infections....Babesia and Bartonella.
Illnesses:-Chronic Lyme Disease,Hashimotos Thyroiditis, Ulcers, Hypoglycemia
Medications:-Biaxin 250mg to start,Mepron,Ultram,Thyro Complex 60mg,Probiotics and supplements


CajunGrl
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   Posted 6/10/2009 3:43 AM (GMT -6)   
Pcpc,

I wish I could have read your post a year ago. I did email her to tellher how I felt but it all got out of control. I wish I could have done what you did. That was very smart thinking. Good for you! And, I'm so sorry you're dealing with this too. It's a shame we have to go through this while we are sick but I think it will make us stronger and more aware of the people we take into our lives.
2003 symptoms started;panic attacks,anxiety,heightened senses.
2007 Diagnosed with Lyme. Didn't start treatment.
2008 symptoms came back with a vengence.
2009 Diagnosed with Lyme plus co-infections....Babesia and Bartonella.
Illnesses:-Chronic Lyme Disease,Hashimotos Thyroiditis, Ulcers, Hypoglycemia
Medications:-Biaxin 250mg to start,Mepron,Ultram,Thyro Complex 60mg,Probiotics and supplements


CajunGrl
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   Posted 6/10/2009 3:49 AM (GMT -6)   
3WhiteRoses,

Btw, love your forum name. You're so right about this disease changing us. I am more grouchy than ever! Haha! That's seriously true BUT, I also think it is also bringing alot of positives into my life too. My husband and I have gotten really close from this, my brother and I have a friendship now and he tells me he loves me all the time. He never did that before. His girlfriend and I have become friends and we get along really well. We are so much alike. She even asked me to be in their wedding next year. I wasn't thinking about all the positives because I was too focused on the negatives. You all have opened my eyes WIDE openED and I truly appreciate that. I really feel like I'm starting to heal.
2003 symptoms started;panic attacks,anxiety,heightened senses.
2007 Diagnosed with Lyme. Didn't start treatment.
2008 symptoms came back with a vengence.
2009 Diagnosed with Lyme plus co-infections....Babesia and Bartonella.
Illnesses:-Chronic Lyme Disease,Hashimotos Thyroiditis, Ulcers, Hypoglycemia
Medications:-Biaxin 250mg to start,Mepron,Ultram,Thyro Complex 60mg,Probiotics and supplements


Turquoise Sky
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   Posted 6/10/2009 6:48 AM (GMT -6)   
CajunGrl,
That's okay! I think my hormones are going a bit more haywire lately. I still need to figure them out. If I ever accomplish that I will write a book!

Pcpc,
You are so wise! That was perfectly said! Just making the decision to let her go in a way that didn't blame or attack her, while explaining your need at the time took the pressure off both of you at the same time. It has taken me at least 40 years to learn to stand up for myself, and you're right about this being a learning experience, more like a crash course. I feel like I almost needed to go through this to become the person I was meant to be. There may have been another way to learn the things that I have been learning about myself, but it was very effective!

CajunGrl
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   Posted 6/10/2009 11:16 AM (GMT -6)   
Turquoise,

If anyone knows about hormones, it's me, LOL. Omg, especially around my cycle. My poor husband always pays for it, LOL.
2003 symptoms started;panic attacks,anxiety,heightened senses.
2007 Diagnosed with Lyme. Didn't start treatment.
2008 symptoms came back with a vengence.
2009 Diagnosed with Lyme plus co-infections....Babesia and Bartonella.
Illnesses:-Chronic Lyme Disease,Hashimotos Thyroiditis, Ulcers, Hypoglycemia
Medications:-Biaxin 250mg to start,Mepron,Ultram,Thyro Complex 60mg,Probiotics and supplements

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