Neff, surely it is your illness causing the insomnia and worrying thoughts? You have my sympathies on the insomnia -- that alone can be life wrecking! Let us know hw you are doing, OK?
CajunGrl, normally I would feel good after a 'good cry'. But not lately. It just comes on and it's awful. The bad 'S' word starts invading my mind -- I know it's a disease, because I have no real thoughts or desires of it, it's just the word. Seems to float around in my head, against my will.