Hello dear friends,
Its been a long year. At this point I have no clue what day it is where I am at who and what I have done. This is freaking me out. Lymes is so new to me! I tested positive Babesiosis after living for over 20 years treating multiple sclerosis. It was a great shock and For a moment I thought Hey this is great no more posin shots to prevent ms from progressing. Im trying to understand lymes and its not been easy, Im doing all the vitamins and antibiotics I was freaked when my lymes doctor said and mailed me prescriptions for hormones, its just all so much. Im well no bullcrap afraid of meds as they always give me the worst side effects. I use to have high blood pressure after starting treatment for lymes my eyes blurred and blood pressure went to low..Then I came out .25 for vitamin d? Its just so overwhelming… I was to afraid to start his hormone regimine, I feel so ashamed. I know you must be like what is she crying about she found out she dosent have ms?
Im so blown away why wont my nero help me or even admit yes this is possible? Will this lymes ever go away, I don’t think after 20 years it will? How is this fair to people they show the darn animal commercial protect your pets from lymes,,, but hey there is no way humans can suffer long term from this. Why is this even a issue?
I feel lost and sad and confused, I cry for no reason and feel so defeated. I don’t believe in depression..i hate pity party people but Im sitting here in full on tears and just want to go home to the lord im done let me off this darn ride it sucks! I have a feeling this may be hormones and I need doctors help….But where the hell is the doctors??? My app. Is next month and I will have to drive 9 hrs, im sure you all ready know its so hard to drive with vertigo. This will be my 3 visit and im taking someone this visit as I seem to space out when im there. Its all so much.
How is this possible, really I get doctors make mistakes that’s fine I do to, but to find the truth and ignore it well that is like watching someone die, or at least it feels like it….My mind isn’t right so please forgive me if I don’t make sense…I just want to figure this out hit the escape button anything. I cant give up as god gave me this truth and answer in my western blot test after 20 years…im so tierd…..i know you guys are to. Im just so angry at all this…. Not just for myself but for all of us…I wont be rid of lymes after 20 years, I wonder what the 15 years of shots and steroids have done to me, I have no tail yet?
Thanks for the ear friend….
This hurts, Im afraid, there is little relief, the fear is great, how the hell is this lymes kicking my ass and I was never afraid of my M.S. Im lost and need a hand. Why wont anyone help? I don’t want the pills, I cant trust them or the people. They all lie. The one man I found is far away and trying to help hundreds of people like us…..God please send some help for all of us….this is awful…..
Please pray for me friends as I will for you