I see in another post that you're only 26, pretty young to feel like you do. When you talk with your doctor (you mentioned in the other post that you're seeing your neuro, soon) talk with him about the possibility that you might also be suffering from depression. Depression can happen with MS -- a chemical imbalance in the brain, caused by a lesions in the wrong place. Lots of folks take antidepressants, which also can sometimes help with fatigue, and even pain, so it's worth asking about it.
You should also ask about going to see a physical therapist. If your walking is a problem, and that is why you're staying inside, you might need to learn how to use a cane, which can help with stability and get you moving more. I use a wheelchair full time, but still get out and about, doing things, particularly when my husband is around to help. I thought you were all alone, but you said you have a fiance; I'm sure he'd be glad to help you with canes or forearm crutches, if it meant you'd go out and do things. Even an afternoon shopping, or hanging out at the mall, or going out for dinner, will help your overall attitude.
YOu say your fiance is trying to "deal with" you. Exactly what is it that you're asking of him? What are you not able to do by yourself, that you need help with? Talk about that here, and maybe we can offer some ideas about how to increase your independence, and build up your confidence about getting out and about in the world.
Welcome-I am new myself. You've already made the 1st step to getting out by joining this forum.
Wonderful folks all banded together by a frusturating disease. As you read thru posts you'll find alot of answers you hadn't thought you'd needed and they all help.
I've been in a wheelchair for years and cannot get out w/o assistance tho have a wonderful husband who makes sure I get out whether I realise I need to or not! It does make a great difference to be among the 'living'.
This past year I took up watercolor painting. It's good home therapy and keeps your mind off of lurking depression. I started going into the local art store for supplies and started making new friends there. From there I was invited to different painting groups where I'd gotten alot of help w/my painting. The amazing thing was everyone accepted me as a regular person, offerred help w/wheelchair but did not make any overtures @ my disability.
It's a very good feeling to be among well people and be thought as one of them. The ms groups I've joined were a bit depressing looking at all the disability devices,... Have met 2 women in my painting group that use canes and we'd never questioned each other until after a few months and sure as heck they have ms too.
Alot of times my husband'll drop my off somewhere outside by a picnic table or picnic shelter while he shops and I paint. You'd be suprised how many people will stop to visit with an 'artist'. Most towns have a 'dial-a-ride' system for disabled which can take you anywhere. If you take painting supplies as I do or even a book to your downtown park that is a big step on getting yourself out and you'll have that book or whatever to rely on that you are not alone.
Good luck to you, life is hard even w/o ms.