That was very scary I am sure. Try not to panic though. It could mean something larger and more disabling is around the corner but then again it may not. I know you are not diagnosed yet so keep that positive outlook. It will carry you far. I remember when I was first diagnosed, my doctor told me something. She said that her patients all have a variety of impairments; everything from invisible to in a wheelchair. She says that she hears the same thing time and time again. "I am happy right now. If only I could stay right where I am with this disease." She gets that from people very impaired and the same from people not so impaired.
The message I got from all that is that the hardest part of this is adapting to a recent change in your body's functioning. Once you have made that adaptation, things look up again. So when something changes for me, I know I am not going to love it, I am going to be depressed and irritable and struggle to find hope and joy in my life. But I never stay there. Things always get better as I adapt and learn do deal with the changes my body goes through.
I feel this is a great lesson for life and not just for those with MS. We all change as we age. So know that you are strong and you will adapt and when you are really down, you won't stay there. Find the support you need while learning to adjust to any changes your body may go through.
I hope this helps. I also hope that whatever is going on with you is not serious and is completely treatable. If it is more serious, we will be here for you whatever it maybe.
Love and prayers,
Diagnosed with MS July 2006
Co-moderator MS forum
I was strongest when I laughed at my weakness.