Jo, hugs to you. I don't have UC nor have I had surgery but I remember this happening after each of my children's births. Thirteen days after each I hit a wall. Couldn't get the energy to get dressed, walk to get the mail, nothing but nurse them. Each time this happened, my mom wouldn't take no for an answer. She made me get dressed (even in sweats), made me sit in a chair on the patio, made me walk to the end of the driveway with her and back again. It wasn't much but it was her way of making me change my scenery. I remember thinking I couldn't even muster the energy to do any of those things. Over the next few days, she would make me get in the car with the baby (and any kids in tow) and we would drive to the mall (or supermarket). Mind you both of us hated shopping. But she would help push/pull me back into civilization.
Do you have anyone around who will be your support? Someone who will make you get moving, take that short walk with you? It's hard, but try to remember to take one day (or even one hour) at a time. Try to find something positive/happy about the day. Maybe you were able to eat something that you haven't for awhile. Maybe you were able to get up out of the chair without too much pain. Whatever it is, enjoy the moment.
I want to thank you for bringing this up. It never occurred to me that someone would go through this after surgery. It is something I will look out for.
I felt the same exact way after my surgery...I had my ileostomy surgery and was in the hospital for 6 days, then I went home, but 2 days after being home I had to go *back* to the hospital because I had an obstruction... got an NG tube (*horrible*), etc....trust me, you sound a lot more upbeat than I was when in the hospital...!
It is so hard to get yourself going when you really do not feel well. I had this one nurse (I called her "the drill sergeant" in my head) who would come in each day and and pretty much *make* me get up and go on walks, get up and get a shower, etc...at the time, she kind of got on my nerves, but I realized that she was doing me a favor, and I thanked her for it!
When you said "one minute I am fine and the next minute I am crying," --that was Exactly what I did!! :) When they were going to order me my very first meal after not eating for almost 14 days, I was so excited and anticipating it all day! I was supposed to have a cheeseburger, sherbet and iced tea, but when the girl delivered my meal, all I got was a dry, cold English muffin with some margerine! And I actually started to Cry! (I was so embarrassed, I tried to hide it, though..).
anyway, I know each day you will feel a little bit better...! I hope today is your best yet!