I inadvertently learned a trick from my ICU nurse back in March that may help you also. She would come in every morning and sit with me to discuss what goals we (me and her) had for me for the day. The first day was sitting in a chair and small things like that but it gave me direction. She wrote them on the dry erase board on my wall so that I could see them all day and would mark them out when I accomplished one. When I left ICU she explained the reaon is to keep my mind focused on progress so my mind wouldn't wander to thinking about the bad things. It did me good and now I have continued that in my daily life. I used to drive truck over the road but haven't been able to since the first of the year. It was a big shell shock for me, I was used to working all day and now was stuck at home with a routine I coudn't relate with. By giving myself "goals" for the day I was able to think about what all I had to do for the day and at the same time keeping myself from constantly thinking about the "bag" and all the problems that could happen. At the end of the day I review what I have done and reflect at all that I was able to accomplish with the bag. By seeing that you can accomplish these things at home should help to see that you can do it at work too. I hope this helps, it has realy worked for me when I got down and felt helpless right after my first surgery.
Total Colectomy with End Ileostomy May 27th, 2008
Okay, here's the truth. This surgery is complex and difficult. Recovery is hard enough when surgery is done when the patient is healthy but it's much harder when the patient has had the surgery in an emergency situation. Your recovery will take months, not weeks or days. You probably will see improvements in six week increments; but you will get better! Have patience, get plenty of rest, and I found going back to work distracted me from my butt and allowed me to recover mostly without thinking about it all the time.