yes dont worry about offloading thats what this is for. I know how it feels - each day is the same - bloated/in pain/sick/nauseous etc etc. it seems like there is no peace or let up. there is no pleasure to be gotten from anything.
hope this day finds you a bit of relief somehow. i am scared to death of having a total colec but for people like us there seems no alternative does there?
by the way, what is MOM tablets???
Thank you everyone for your support, you really made me feel better; even if I still couldn't eat or breathe! I ended up going to bed without any dinner and this morning I wasn't any better. For some reason usually when I wake up in the morning, it's like the bloating goes down somewhat - not today! I ate two bites of a cinnamon roll for breakfast and that's all I could handle. I'm at work today and I have a lunch appointment with a client. I wonder how that's going to go since I can't eat? I had to turn in my notice at work yesterday. I've only worked here since May and you have to work here for 12 months for the FMLA to take effect. They also won't just let me take a leave of absence. So, what I had to do was resign and then I can re-apply when I am ready to come back to work. Technically they can't hold my job open, but they said they won't 'actively' pursue a replacement. I've told them I will be in the hospital for 5 days and then home for two weeks. I haven't told them it could be longer. I figure this way they will wait at least that long before they start looking for someone else because that doesn't seem too long. It would take longer to hire and train someone. My last day here will be the 16th. I wanted to be able to have a few nice days to myself before the surgery and then I want to spend the weekend with my family before going in on the 22nd.
Karen, MOM tablets are just the Phillips Milk of Magnesia (MOM) tablets. I hate drinking laxative stuff so I take the pills. And as for an alternative, I just want it OUT!!
Psygirl - I'll have to try some jello tonight. I haven't thought of that, thanks! For my birthday I got a robot vacuum and a 50" plasma tv for my living room. Just in time for my surgery!!
Nene - thanks for understanding. I feel like my whole life revolves around trying to figure out when I can "clean" myself out (and how?) and thinking of my surgery...oh, and reading this board! Which I LOVE! BTW - there is a story behind my screen name!
Summerstorm - I just love my red toenails! That is too funny that you have them too. My sister-in-law paints hers blue. That's her signature color, but it looks weird to me. Thanks for the birthday wish! And yes, people think I'm weird for looking forward to my surgery. Then I have to explain that it's the end result that I'm looking forward to, not the surgery!!
thanks psygirl for letting me know - i guess you will get more continent as you only had surgery five weeks ago. does it affect your social life? or are you able to know when you will need the loo, or is it all over the place???
2ris k i see my surgeon for followup on 19 sept to discuss my decision to have surgery and then he will put me on waiting list - could take as little as 8 weeks til i get surgery if i am lucky. i also have a bit of peeing trouble - since i had pelvic floor surgery i have to 'shake' myself up and down and press on my bladder as i dont feel i have emptied properly- it is all due to the bowel problems i think - it is all connected after all... enemas have never helped me somehow - that is better than taking stimulant laxatives though...
psygirl thanks for that.
I am glad life is better for you now, even with the inconvenience of pullups and erratic bowels. that is how i am now - only when taking the senna which i take am and pm - 28 in total. so i wonder if i will also be the same after surgery? mines a long story really - i used to have obstructed defacation syndrome - until they found via MRI a twisted bit of sigmoid. it was only after they removed the sigmoid part that my bowel totally packed up..... however, the obstruction was sorted.
since then i have been increasing the senna to a point where i know how much i need. anyway taking more has no effect. so i have urgency when i need the loo and have to run up the stairs. there are times about once a month or so i dont make it. also it can work anywhere between 3 1/2 hours to 10 hours after taking, so going out for the day is not on, as i am scared there will be no loo around, plus i take around 30 mins or so in the loo as there is no point getting up if there is more to come which would catch me short again. so the only way to go out all day and not worry is not to take any laxatives in the morning, but then i have to put up feeling sick and in pain - i usualy cant eat when i am like that either.
i suppose one has to weigh up the pros and cons of life like this or life with incontinence - it is a hard decision for me as all i want is to enjoy life again.