I had my ileostomy on 9/5/2008. I was fine in the hospital, but on the second night home I suffered a real bad panic attack. We had to call the doctor that night for ativan. After taking three pills it only calmed me down a little. The next day depression and anxiety set in really bad. I thought I was loosing my mind. I couldn't understand how a operation on my stomach could cause a totaly different person. I got to the point were I went to the the er and they recommened a therapist. I was lucky to get in right away. She put me on meds (not all have kicked in yet, takes 3-4 weeks) but as of today I do see a little difference. Before I would cry for hours at end and be angry at everyone. Hopefully I am on the road to sane recovery. We came to the conclusion most of this is grieving over everything I lost. I worked out and was always proud to have a six pack at 40 after 3 kids. Working out and doing crunches was always a stress reducer for me, now I can't. I use to wear tight fitting clothes now I can't. I go into my closet and I cry. I bought new clothes (baggy) but it feels like they are not mine. My abs are now all scared with a bag. I do feel better health wise and I try to focus on that, and I pray it can be reversed by next year. Thank you for letting me vent!
Post Edited (mom9mom) : 10/4/2008 12:08:54 AM (GMT-6)