I am sorry to hear you are having problems. I was forced to get a colostomy after my colon was knicked during a hysterectomy for uterine cancer. It was meant to be a temp. and was to be reversed after 1 yr of being cancer free. A went through chemo and radiation treatment and then went into surgery a year later to get hooked back up and they were not able to. I had too much scar tissue from the radiation in the rectal stump area. It was very frustrating to leave the hospital with the colostomy and all the harware that somes with being an ostomate. What I am very thankful for though is that 8 years later, I am well and cancer free. Yes...I have the colostomy and always will. I have chosen to live life to the fullest and have found my new normal. I hope that all will turn out for you but if the reversal is not successful...life goes on. I only found this forum last week and wished I had it 8 years ago. You all are great people and offer do much support!
Cancer Diagnosis Jan 2001
Hysterectomy turned into colostomy on left side.
Takedown surgery turned into reconnecting to rectal stump but ended up with a temporary ostomy on right side.
Radiation therapy has caused too much scarring of the rectal area to allow for normal BM's. So temporary ostomy has become perm.