yeah, I talk a good talk! Hopefully it won't all come crashing down after the surgery. For years I was totally opposed to surgery, but as time goes by, and you become sicker & sicker, & less meds work... it seems as if it's the only option left to me. And the best option, at that. I'm not "happy" about it by any means, but what can I do? I'm hoping my ET nurse hooks me up also- I really have no clue about the supplies, & I know I can expect a fair amount of leaks at first. That's what i'm freaked about- leaking in bed in the middle of the night & waking up my husband!