Mom I sat in my chair early yesterday morning
Tree lights flashing and decorations all looking good
I felt this tug at my heart and tears on my face .........
I know you wont be here this year
With me in body ,but in Spirit for sure
I hurt like hades everytime I think of you
I miss you ,hearing your voice
Your laugh and yes even the griping at dad lol
I have never had a Christmas without you
so this is all new to me and I need to find a way
to have me get thru it
it seems harder each day
Nothing is the same
No family "get togethers' ...they have all gone their way
I wish it wasnt this way Mom
But I know now that you
Just could not stay and face another day
Of pain and sadness for not remembering and
drifting away .........
A few tears fell down of course as I knew
I had to get off my rear as you woulld say and " get it done "
For Cait and Howie,Dad and self
The tears will still come but I know that is normal and
I also know that you will be here with me in Spitit
Everyday for the rest of my Life
You left quite the legacy with your ways and your love
I know you are watching me constantly
Yes I know from" Up Above"
I love and miss you so much I hung a " Special " ornament in memory of you
I will take a few minutes Christmas Morning and talk to you
Like I usually do
I miss that more than anything and I will continue this
Til I am beside you "Up There" and can talk to you
In person once again and share a laugh or two
Loving and missing you all
the days I am
More so now as the Favorite time of yours draws near
I know you will be watching from up above
Wishing us hope happiness and love
Love and miss you Mom so much
Your Loving daughter
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Post Edited (Howlyncat) : 2/19/2007 4:18:54 PM (GMT-7)