Well last year I was not doing well at this time of year, in fact I was using Vicodin for my herniated disk in my lower back. In reality I was having a reaction between the AD and the pain med but I did not realize that. I was liking the Vicodin..............and my Pdoc said it has to go.
You would think she is my Mom...............ok, I got pneumonia the first part of January and I had been weaning off the Vicodin and I felt like I was dying so on January 15,2007 I flushed the narcs down the toilet and I have not touched one since.
Holy Moley..............almost a year. I remember when I counted the days I was free of the narc. For pain I use Aleve.
I started therapy with a new therapist that I liked and trusted........we did wonders together. I only see her now on a "need to: basis. I practice what she taught me.
Don't dwell on the past, don't anticipate what might happen tomorrow.............Be in the moment today. Works but it takes practice.
Drum roll please.........................I joined Healing Well. I met some of the best people and have found comfort, caring and someone to listen to me when I am happy or sad.
I also am able to give and receive here in this forum as well as the other ones I cruise.
So a huge Thank you to Peter and this is one thing that I will carry forward with me..............it was a good thing even though I had some tough times with Depression, HW lifted me up.
You, the members , are Healing Well. Thank you and now I move forward into 2008. :)
A special Thank you to my mentor, my friend and my Big Sis
What a great thread!! I have to say that this has been an extremely difficult year for me - I have been hospitalized twice because the A/P and I was out of control. I also found out I am Bipolar. Now my daughter is ill and we aren't sure yet what is causing this problem. But we will be finding out soon. Also, my mom passed away two weeks ago - so as I said this has been a very difficult year. But I am getting through it with the help of everyone here.
But, I have 3 good things (I know, Lyn - you said 1, but I can't help but share the other 2) to share with everyone.
1st - is I have found this great family here at Healing Well. I just love it here. I am learning how to deal with all these
2nd - is I have found out just how supportive my family is - this includes my extended family.
3rd - is I have found a good therapist and pdoc that I trust and have helped me tremendously and continue to do so.
Thanks for letting us share our successes Lyn.
Love ya Big Sis
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Dx: Agoraphobia, Anxiety/Panic Disorders, Barrett's Esophagus, Bipolar Disorder, Depression, Fibromyalgia, I.B.S., Mitral Valve Prolapse, Narcolepsy, PTSD, Restless Leg Syndrome, Severe Acid Reflux, Sleep Apnea, Social Anxiety
Rx: Abilify, Ambien CR, Ativan, Flexeril, Lamictal, Neurontin, Nexium, Requip, Ritalin ER, Valium
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Post Edited (wen4003) : 12/29/2007 3:52:44 AM (GMT-7)
What I have read here so far brings tears to my eyes and makes me so proud to be able to call you family. I am happy that we all have made strides this year, and I know next year will deal us new cards but the love and support of this community will see us through.
May hope, love, and warmthbe in your heart's possessing,and may the New Yearbring you and yoursmany blessings.Happy New Year!!!
Post Edited (TeNNiSd0C09) : 12/28/2007 10:24:17 PM (GMT-7)
Hi, Tennis! I came for a visit on this forum because you wanted to share what was going on in your life. I knew, when you first started posting in the fibro forum, that you were really struggling. I'm so proud of you that you overcame that destructive urge. You definitely made the right choice.
Life is a series of choices. What we chose to do affects the outcome of our life. Unfortunately, many make wrong choices. You, though, really thought things out and made the very best choice. Now, from what you have been writing on the fibro forum, you are making many great choices! You persevered and got help for your physical pain, you are sleeping better, going out with friends more, and, best of all, planning for a great future! I'm so very proud of you, Tennis!
Try not to let the anxiety and panic take over either. From your post, you seem to be doing much better in that area. I suffered from anxiety and panic to the point that I barely could move and was on so much valium that it was affecting my personality. I sure didn't like what was happening. I'm a perfectionist and like to be in control of situations in my life but I definitely wasn't in control of the panic attacks and anxiety! Once I realized the panic and anxiety was really fear, I could recognize it for what it really was. (That's why I have the scripture in my signature.) I figured that I really didn't have anything to fear so I wasn't going to let fear rule over my life! When anxiety or panic would start, the pounding heart, the sweats, the shakiness, etc., I recognized it as fear and dismissed the feelings. I knew I wasn't dying and so I got busy focusing on something besides how I was feeling and the symptoms would leave. It took practice but I have total control now. Just a few months ago I had a huge problem trying to swallow...I actually couldn't swallow! Of course panic/anxiety reared it's ugly head to make matters worse. I was able to swallow again after about 15 l-o-n-g seconds, but that didn't stop good ol' anxiety/panic! That made me angry and I got very busy and, again, I was back in control and the symptoms left.
People are far stronger that they realize. We are capable of doing things we never imagined we could. Look at the people that have lifted automobiles off of people! You can't imagine that it could be done but it has been done over and over again. So I know you can get in control of the anxiety and panic. If I can do it anybody can!
Bottom line...you are a very strong young lady! You are highly intelligent, thoughtful, and are willing to search until you find answers. That tells me that you will go far in this world. Don't let anything stop you. Depression, anxiety, panic...equals fear. Thank goodness there is medication to help, also. You can get control again. Have a great day!
Wow.............absolutely overwhelming with emotion after reading that, I am in tears. To hear how each of you has struggled and to know that our HW family helped you through makes me humble.
I have received so much love and support and I come here daily as I need to, being here reminds me that I do belong, I am ok and that I can still help others. I took the early retirement after a huge meltdown and I have been lost ever since, trying to find who I am? HW has helped me continue to care for others as I did as an ER Nurse.
Your life can change in one minute and to each of you that chose to stay with us, we thank God, for the world is a better place because you live and serve within it.
My wish for you is peace and happiness.
Post Edited (Howlyncat) : 12/29/2007 12:36:33 PM (GMT-7)
It's so good that you're all working through things together. I think sometimes people with anxiety have a tendency to block everyone else out and we shouldn't because being alone really doesn't make things any easier! I believe that one of the most important steps to having a healthy mind is being as open as possible with your feelings, otherwise things do get left unsaid and misunderstandings can occur. I really do hope that you, your daughter and your man do indeed get everything sorted in the new year and that it's a happy one for you.
I think there are so many people here that have so much to be proud of and we should take credit for our accomplishments. I have reread the posts as I really needed to do this and there are so many soul-searching, honest posts here, it's just remarkable in my opinion. I have been sitting here crying at these posts as they are touching my heart so much.
I also come here on an almost daily basis as I need to have my HW "fix" - LOL. But seriously, I love this family and wouldn't want to go anywhere else.
Let us all have the best 2008 possible and keep reaching out to those who can help us - family, friends and I know I've said this before but will say it again....this wonderful family here at Healing Well.