BTW...Keep up the good work you are doing stay with us and YES you have done awesome............
Just dropping in to say Lyn is right on. I have started to practice Lyn's habit of telling myself "This will be a good day". I can sense you are expecting a lot of yourself in a short time.
Just remember those babysteps will add up but it is a slow process. Your doing all the right things but, like me, you want to see results quickly and that doesn't happen. It takes a lot of hard work. So be easy on yourself.
You will make it. Keep on posting and stay in the moment.........
I also wanted to say that Lyn is so right about this issue. It's tough starting out the day on a sour note and I try to do the same as Lyn on a daily basis. It doesn't always work, but I do try.
I have to say that I think your aunt made an excellent point and I have gotten the same feeling from you that really do want this opportunity. No matter what happens - if you decide at any point not to be in CA then that's the right decision for you at the right time. But I do hope you give it a try because as your aunt said, I really do think you want this.
Good luck to you and let us know what you plan to do as well as how you are doing.
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