I just wanted to let you all know that I dont think I will be on for a while. I think I need to get away from all of this. I am just so tired of it. I am sick of being sick. I am so tired of not be able to go out and live my life. And I want more than anything to just go out with friends and not have to worry about anything. I just want to be able to be me.
I will probably still read the threads, because as you know, I cant stay away! But, I really have to cut down on it. I think its holding me back. I need to try to forget it some so I can do other things.
You guys mean so much to me and I know you are always here for me. I will probably read on here alot but I am not going to be participating or posting much, unless I am absolutely dying too! I just think it will be better for me. I'm sorry.
I just have some things going on, other than health issues, that I am having toruble with. I know I cant just stop everything and take a break, life doesnt work like that, but I feel like I really have to take a break.
Today, I had a friend come over that I hadnt seen in a long time. We went to the mall to just hang out. Although it was boring, I was so happy just to be there. I was so happy because my 2 friends know about me and I was so happy I could just be me and not have to hide anything or pretend. But, I havent been out in so long. And I havent been happy in so long. I just wish I could have lived in that moment. It was great. I want to do it again!!
So, I am going to try to make things better. I am going to try to just be me and to forget about my problems and stuff and just go out and do stuff! Or at least try!
So, thats why I am taking a small break! I will miss it, and I will still probably check in everyday just to watch and see what is going on! Thanks for everything you have done for me so far! You all mean so much to me and will always have a special place in my heart!
Post Edited (TeNNiSd0C09) : 1/3/2008 6:34:47 PM (GMT-7)