sorry to hear what you're going through. Something many people feel and fear is the idea of going crazy, or the loss of control. And to that, many people will say this "You are not going crazy. Crazy people don't know they're crazy". Its a total rational fear, but its usually irrational for why we feel that why, so we look for a logical answer. We're human and we immediately look for that reason... That searching and scrambling adds to the cycle of anxiety and can build into a full on attack. Here's a few things to always try and keep in mind.
1. No one has ever died from a panic attack.
2. You're not going crazy.
3. Searching for the answer, and wanting it to go away makes it worse. Weird, but true... When you're in the state you're in.
4. Time really seems to be the best medicine, and when in heightened anxiety is in effect time stands still, so...
Try doing some of these things, only if you can and you are comfortable. The idea behind these different exercises is to break the thought pattern for long enough to break the cycle of anxiety. These are some of the things i do.
1. If you can, try and take a walk. While walking, concentrate on one thing. This may sound weird but it may help. Count the cars along the side of the road, listen to headphones to music you know the lyrics and lip the words, count the windows of the house or buildings in your neighborhood. Count you in and out breath, feel the air enter your nostils fill your lungs and exhale the same way -- feel each part of the breath.
2. Write. write write and write some more. Write exactly how you feel right now. This will serve you another purpose later.
3. Drink some warm tea, no caffeine for now, but something like camameal (sp?)
4. If you like to exercise, do it. Moving around can help restore you ph balance.
5. If you have a book store near and you want to read something that i found really helpful, pick up the book called "Embracing the Fear" -- amazing read and really good when you're in the thick of it.
6. DO WHATEVER makes you feel good (no drugs, or booze though). Eat ice cream, watch a funny movie, eat pizza, talk on the phone, whatever you like to do, do it.
7. Look into going to therapy. A professional should be able to help you. Maybe the meds you are on pooped out. It happens.
8. Be kind and gentle to yourself. Its ok to have those thoughts. Its really great to be you, you're just going through a really really scary and rough time.
9. If you write a bunch and go see a therapist, bring it a long. Its always in therapy that we forget some of the thought patterns or pain. Sometimes I'm so tired by the time i get to see my doctor that i just say general things like " I felt really anxious". But when i write stuff down I have a lot more to say. And i try and always track the time of writings. When the doctor see that i'm writing every 15 minutes, she can tell that its more than just " anxiety" -- that i'm going through somethings a bit bigger than that.
Regardless of the cause, you feel bad and we want to try and break that, then try and figure out the cause. Does that make sense?
Anyways, i hope that is helpful. That's some of the stuff i do when i'm going through tough times.
Remember to be easy on yourself, none of us want to feel this way but all of us here do or have. We know just how rough it really is... I thought i was going crazy lots of times... Even when I logically know I'm not... Its really tough, so big hug and hang in there!
please keep us posted.
Anxiety, Panic Disorder, and Depression.
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Post Edited (Danxiety) : 1/5/2008 10:37:26 PM (GMT-7)