Thanks for posting. It sounds like you had a big, nasty attack there. ((((((sympathy hugs))))) I'm glad you have a good relationship with your teacher, she could be a real help to you. It's good to have friends who (sorta) understand as well.
Don't beat yourself up for having an attack after not having one for a while. It happens, it's the cycle of anxiety, congratulate yourself for getting online so quick and asking for support. That's amazing!
Do you think any one thing triggered the panic attack or did it just "come out of the blue?" I think talking to your teacher will be a great thing. She might be able to put you onto some extra support, or let you out of class if you panic again. Once again, it's great to see you back posting...keep taking deep breaths and let us know what we can do to help
It is ok that you came back and it was a good thing that you made the choice to come here where you can feel safe and talk about your feelings. We are family and here to support you.
Remember one bad day will happen and now it is past, so please don't beat yourself up. You did not fail. Your going to be ok, talk to us and we will help you as best we can.
Thanks. Actually is has been getting worse since the other day. I have know idea what happened. I had an anxiety attack at school yesterday and I had a horrible night last night...meaning I cried in my bathroom floor in the dark...like I seem to be doing more often....
I was just wondeirng why I had to go through all of this...why again...you know, why cant things be just a tad easier than they are...why do I have to be the way I am...why cant I just tell someone about my feelings...
I was crying about those things I guess. I have come to the conclusion that I cant tell anyone because of the way I have grown up. When I think about it, I have never really 'talked' to anyone. I have never told anyone my feelings. I have never had any bad feelings before though. I have always been the happiest person who never stops smiling. Until this past year or so...maybe longer.... But, I think because I have never had to, I feel like I dont know how and that I shouldnt because I never have before...its hard to explain...
I want help, I do, but I dont know how ot get it... I know it is as easy as telling someone but I cant. I cant figure out why exactly...I know I am scared, that is expected, and I am probably a little embarrassed for the things I feel, but thats not my fault. Why cant I just speak up!?!?!?
I dont know. I told my teacher, and I havent gotten to talk with her more about it. But, since I know it has gotten worse, I am going to tell her my feelings and maybe she can talk to someone for me. Its hard for me to hard to her, but its easier because I know she cares so much, I know she will do everything she can to make sure I am ok, and she listens to me.
Hopefully, I can talk to her more Monday, then see where it goes from there. Thanks!
I am so sorry to see that you are going through such a rough time. I hope that things will be better for you soon. I think there are ways you can get yourself to relax during the attacks. Do you practice anything like that? Try some slow breathing like in through the nose and out through the mouth. They call it smelling the roses and blowing out the candles. Then just breath slowly in and out through your nose until your heartrate slows down. Practice that breathing technique even when you are feeling okay so you know it when you need it.
I hope tthat you feel better soon.
Hey there TeNNis
I am so sorry it is getting worse. How about a school nurse...........any access there.
Do yo feel comfortable here talking more? Remember we are not therapists but we do care deeply for you and want to help if we can.
Keep positng. Gentle hugs to you.
I am sorry your Mom and Dad are not happy together. I am very glad you are able to come here and talk and let it out. You are safe here and we respect your feelings.
Wish I had more to offer but hugs are always good.
Gentle Hugs To You.Kitt