I am Kitt and I volunteered to moderate this forum as the topic is close to my heart. I am a retired RN, 26 years working in ER/ICU and then as the Nurse Manager of Emergency Services and Respiratory Care. My husband and I have 4 children, one of our boys was killed in a car crash in 1990.
I have A & P and Depression and was first dx in 1982 so I know this disorder well.
I joined HW after being with a strictly Mental Health site as a moderator for 10 months. I felt I needed to branch out and belong to a group that covered medical and mental health issues. The people here have become family to me.
I have always been a care giver but have learned to take care of me now so I have no more guilt over doing something just for me.
I believe I have a good sense of humor and I love to help others. Team work is very important to me. I am proud to be a part of this forum.
I am glad to be here. I am truly happy you have joined us.
Nice thread Lyn. I'm lulu and I now live in Ontario Canada after moving here two months ago from Australia to be with my boyfriend. My anxiety and panic attacks started about a year ago and then, with meds, improved a lot and I thought that was that, it's in the past. Then I made this big move and my anxiety has come back to such a terrifying extent that I just don't know what to do. Luckily, I finally found a doc here yesterday who was willing to give me a prescription so I'm really hoping that there will be some relief in the near future. I've also started the online CBT which I hope will be helpful too.
I'm glad to have found somewhere like this where everyone seems so genuinely caring and eager to offer help and advice. Looking forward to meeting you all!
Thanks mia and lulu. It is so nice to get to know you. I look forward to getting to visit with you more here in A & P
It's really great to be here! I feel like I'm constantly supported by a wonderful group of people who truly care about me! Thanks Lyn and Kitt! :) A little bit about me, I've struggled on and off with depression since I was 16 and I was recently diagnosed with anxiety about a year ago. After 17 years, I'm beginning to get a true handle on my depression. (I'm 33 years old now.) I live in New England, but grew up in upstate NY. I love hiking, kayaking, watching the clouds drift by on a sunny day, eating a good meal, reading a good book, and laughing out loud! :) I've been on 20 mg of Celexa for about six months now and it's really turned my life around. I also have seasonal affective disorder, so I sit in front of a light box every morning. I'm gradually incorporating cognitive therapy techniques to change my patterns of thinking so I don't get too stressed out or depressed and I've really been focused on eating better, so that's been a huge help too! I'm also beginning to get back into a exercise routine. I really enjoy Yoga and just started going back to the gym for cardio. :) I work in the environmental field, which I love and have my Masters in Science. Oh, and I'm told that I'm smart, cute, and a really hard worker! (Just not by all of the same people of course!) :)
Good Morning America and the whole world.............
When my daughter went to Disney World she would call me at 0630 every monring and say Good Morning , Have a Happy Sunny Day here in the Kingdom. It made me smile, so you will find I try to use humor as part of the combat against anxiety.
enufworry, welcome and thank you for your intro. Let's get you over feeling scared much of the time. Post your fears here and let us help you.
Sadsong, you are gaining strength and wisdom everyday and your posts are delightful. You have a good attitude, hang onto it hun, it will take you far.
Erin, Welcome! I met you in one of the other forums and you are a work in progress sweetie. Never give up and I like the idea of boot camp. If you find one let me know and I will join you.
KalEL Welcome, glad you like our forum. Washington State, beautiful country. I have a son in Oregon. Thank you for sharing yourself with us. Very glad to have you as part of the A & P Family.
You guys are the best.
Thanks Kitt for your welcome---
You suggested that I share my fears---so here's one.
I'm sitting in my living room, it's about 9:00 pm, nothing too dramatic is happening and I start to feel pain in my chest. In my upper arms and if I think about it, my neck and right jaw. I don't think I'm thinking about anything stressful and I just start feeling this stuff. I tell myself that I'm ok, I remind myself that I have had every test in the universe (ekgs, stress test with and without dye, echo card and ct scan) and all of course---negative, But, I have this pain---so I take some asprin---just in case. Now its 10:00 and I still have the pain and I'm trying not to pay too much attention to it and do other things. I know that I have MVP and GERD and Fibro and that all of these things COULD be causing this weird pain---BUT what if THIS time it's REALLY my heart or something bad and I've just ignored it. I have spent years running to the ER and I'm sick of that so I'm sitting here talking to myself and trying to just finish up what I'm doing and not freak myself out and eventually go to bed. If I really think, I guess that I was having a "stressful" conversation with a friend at 6:30----but it was a great conversation and it ended and all was good. Is it the two gulps of cold coffee (decaf) I had with dinner? And so it goes....
Does this make any sense?
Yes it makes lots of sense and many of our members would agree they do the very same thing.
Your on the merry-go-round and your trying to fix something but your don't know what is wrong so you run through the gambit and the anxiety just clings on. People can wake up with anxiety. I know I have just woke up and am not even out of bed and the anxiety just attacks and I am crying I am so anxious. I will be telling myself how can you be anxious when you just woke up?
Try not to work so hard on figuring out what every unusual pain is caused from You have a clear bill of health re your heart and tell yourself this and then try some of the relaxation techiniques.
Have you ever done the CBT therapy. Here is the best online site for CBT.
Take care and feel free to start your own separate thread so everyone finds your posts.
Good morning Kitt,
Thanks so much. I sure know the feeling of just waking up with my anxious brain going and those thoughts that won't quit. Where the heck does it come from? I will start writing things as they come up---good idea. Thanks for the CBT link thingy I have read a lot about it here, but haven't tried it. I will look it up. Thanks again and have a peaceful day.