HI everyone! I hope all is well!!!As everyone knows I'm still fairly new to this group.As i siad before if you read my first thread i have been having panic attacks for about
10 years now!! I have some horrible days and some good days. Today was an ok day as it's dreary and ugly outside.This is one of those days that i'm having the racing thoughts that are uncontrollable.I feel like i cant stop thinking!!! When all i really want to do is relax.I'm so bored with my life as my world has gotten smaller since the panic attacks!!! I want to be able to travel so bad, the last time i took a lenghthy road trip was in around 2003!! At first the anxiety attacks were not bad when i took road trips as long as it was not too long of a distance.But now i cant even stay on the inerstate for 30 minutes without feeling scared and overwhelmed! I feel as if i venture too far away from home something devistating is going to happen!! Also my husband started having seizures a few years back,but they are well controlled with his meds.But when they first started he went through a denial phase so throughout the years in the beginning he would miss doses of his meds and have seizures, most of the time at night as he slept.So we would have to go to the ER in the middle of the night so he could get mega doses of his seizure medicine through IV,and then he would be ok until he missed doses again.It's been 2 years now since he's had one, he finally got the message!!! But my point in telling you all this is ,that adds to my fear of travling, i fear that maybe we would be miles away from home and he will have a seizure and i will totally freak out and start having severe panic attacks in some unknown place as i try to drive him to the hospital.Then my worst fear would become a reality i would have to drive us back home on the inerstate as i'm all shook up!!!! So when i think about
travling not only do i think about
how anxious i will be i fear him having a seizure behind the wheel of the car as well! I have not seen my famiy out of town in along time being that the only time i see them is when they come to me which i'm sure gets old! They know i have panic attacks but they dont quite understand.They say just take somehting to sedate yourself and come on! And those of us that have them know its not quite that easy ,even when i take a xanax or something i still cant do it.ALL I WANT TO DO IS BE NORMAL!!!! I KNOW THIS IS A LONG THREAD BUT I GUESS I JUST NEED SOMEONE TO REACH OUT TO ME AS IM AT A LOW POINT RIGHT NOW!!! WHY CANT I JUST GET ON THE HIGHWAY AND GO!!!! THERE ARE SO MANY PLACES I WANT TO GO AND SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO SEE!!!! I cant even get on the inerstate here in the city i take the long way everywhere i go as i avoid all tunnels,bridges ect. PLEASE GIVE ME SOME ANSWERS GUYS I'M LOSING HOPE HERE!!!!!