Hi, this is Kitt...............I would not go in the direction your going my friend. I would look at Depersonalization : A frightening and/or disturbing experience of not being within one's own body or of being in immediate danger of vanishing/separating from reality – often described as the sensation of living inside a dream. Although cognitive functioning remains intact, the sufferers feel disconnected from their sense of self and often interpret it “as if I am losing my mind.” Cognitive-behavioral therapy can help sufferers to modify their conscious thinking patterns and reinstate spontaneity of feeling and thought. I would like to suggest that you make an appointment and talk with your Doctor. You may need a change in meds, therapy or just talking it through here may help you.I love the internet but sometimes we end up making matters worse with our surfing so please remember to take the articles for what they are ..just an article and get yourself a good check up.
I know this is a extremely scary experience. Keep posting, we arre here for youKitt