Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 2/7/2008 9:24:57 AM (GMT-7)
Hey im exactly the same, it could almost be me writing that. I suffer from anxiety which turns into depression and I've always realy struggled wiv obtrusive thoughts altho yours sound alittle worse.
An example of my obtrusive thought was a friend made a joke about my sleepin wiv my ex-GF. I trust both of them so much but it planted the seed. I then hav to hear my GF tel me she hasn't cheated despite the fact I kno she hasn't and i trust it the anxiety screwing wiv my feelings. Make it seems like i dnt trust her wen i realy do. If i let them thoughts like this rule my life i hav to plan every eventuality and realy feel the need to predict every possible outcome. And the most likely out come is always the worst. I hav the same road thing as u the sudden urge jus to drive into other lane.
I gotta go bt i post agin later wiv how i try n deal wiv everythin
Hope every1 is doing ok
Post edited per content.............please see my post below. Thank youin advance for your understanding.
Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 2/7/2008 9:38:25 AM (GMT-7)
Dear Highstrung Welcome to Healing Well and the A & P Forum.
I just want to jump in here to remind everyone discussion about self-harming is not permitted under forum rules . As a general rule we dont mind people saying that they have done it but thats it. We have to be careful about such discussions since there are minors as youngs as 13 who use the site and also I believe there are legal implications as well.I would suggest going to IM or email if you want to talk specifics.
Thanks for your understanding.
Thank you all for your help. sorry for you having to edit my post I didn't know how else to write it but I understand thanks for explaining. My significant other and I are scheduled to start couples therapy and I am going to the VA to be seen again. I guess I'm one of those people that when I'm on meds I don't feel like they are doing anything until I have hindsight and realize that my lows were when I wasn't on medication and my highs were when I was.
Everyone here gives great advice. I know that any of you who have dealt with these problems know that it's hard not being able to talk to someone about stuff because it makes you feel so lonely but some of these things you just can't say to people, even your friends.
I just want to feel better for my family. My son is the best thing that ever happened to me but my mom was this way when I was growing up and I have to wonder if that's not where I got it. I don't want my son growing up like this all mad and anxiety ridden.
I did have another question though and i know I saw a post but I didn't see anything here. Do any of you suffer from chronic diahhrea that you think may be due to anxiety? Last year I had an episode where we drove twenty minutes to the town over to have breakfast. I had a huge salad and on the way home we had to pull over on the side of the road so that I could number 2. it was about three months after i had my son c-section and so my stomach was a little different. every since then i can't leave my house for fear that i'm gonna get diahhrea, so I just stay home. because I have such problems with thoughts I just wonder if maybe it isn't all related. My doctor told me to take fiber supplements and I do and they help a little but not much.
I just wondered if anybody else had this problem if they had found a solution. Anyway, thanks everyone for your advice. It's great to have support.
I agree, D can be caused by anxiety. My sister used to get upset stomach and D anytime she becames anxious.......... That was a good question.
A big salad may have contributed to the D also. Depends on your digestive track.Hope your baby is growing and you are enjoying your Motherhood.With my firstborn, who had colic, I took him to the Docs after 2 weeks and asked to give him back..............no sleep, constant crying. We made it through and he out grew the colic at 3 months.
You are a wonderful Mother, believe in you. (((((((HUGS)))))))))
Thanks all so much for your concern. I think that I made things sound worse than they are which is why it's hard to explain. My son is now 16 months old and I don't have those problems anymore. I haven't for a long time, that was just the worst part of it and the part that made me so screwed up. I have scheduled couples counseling though and am trying to get in touch with my nearest VA center to start therapy again. I think the biggest problem for me is that some of the thought problems and anxiety problems that I have are so innate that I may have to take medication indefinetely.
I have been trying to fight this all my life mostly because having to take medication makes me feel so defected, like if it's this hard why was I even put here. But I believe in a higher power and I know that there is a reason and that maybe it is just like having diabetes or something and you just have to take the medication and go one about your business. I know this is going to sound stupid but my favorite book is Prozac Nation. She makes a comment in there that depression happens gradually and then suddenly. I have taken prozac and paxil and different things in random intervals but I guess I'm one of those people that once I feel a little better I think i'm suddenly okay and so i wean myself off and then slowly things start to turn upside down again and I don't even realize it til I wake up one day and feel like my world is caving in.
My problems with anxiety like I said are so innate. my mother was an alcoholic when I was growing up and she had a lot of horrible coping mechanisms and I think that because of all that I don't know that the way that I deal and feel is not normal and could be helped. I don't even know what it would feel like to just wake up and not worry. It's become my life.
This forum is so great. It's so nice to talk to people who understand. Thanks everyone so much. My family is wonderful and my son and I are great and have so much fun. I am a stay at home mother and I go to school. He is the greatest things that ever happened to me.
Will keep in touch and thanks again.
Good Morning highstrung
I am glad you went to the VA and received help. You have served your time in the military and you have the right to use the medical benefits set up for our military so please do not feel bad about that. It was a good thing for you.
CBT: the MoodGym Training Program is online and free to work through. Many have used it so here is the link: http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/welcome
Take your time working through it, the program is all there and you have to practice what you learn but I know you can do this.
AS for the meds, I have read posts by other members taking meds during pregnancy but the best one to answer that question will beyour PCP when you are ready to move ahead with adding to your family.
I wish you a day filled with sunshine and happiness.Kitt
Just wanted to say many of your symptoms are not yours alone. One thing that struck a cord with me is that your mother was suffering from anxiety and abused alcohol. So did mine, she is pretty much agoraphobic. To her credit she has stopped all substances and Zoloft has helped her a great deal.
I also have intrusive thoughts...like if i don't hear from my b/f by say 9am every morning he is obviously dead or cheating on me (I know this is irrational) And is someone is late for something I convince myself that a horrible car accident has occured. I also constantly have non-sensical words and thoughts running through my head, and music...but I never get to pick the channel :)
Just wanted you to know what you are feeling is part of having an anxiety disorder. In my opinion, its brain chemisry mixed with environment, and I resisted medication for a very long time and suffered needlessly.
Best wishes to you! Let us know how you get along :)