"Healing is an energy phenomenon. Hope is another word for Healing. "Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart no matter how strong you are""Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve""Im going to smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."
First, let me start off by saying that you did an excellent job of summarizing and presenting the dynamics with your Mom. It truly sounds like you have really been thinking this through from several perspectives. ..And this is usually the toughest part of a problem.
In looking at you wrote you have basically stated: (1) how you are doing and what you need to feel better; (2) how your mother is behaving and why and (3) her behaviors' effect on you.
Hey TeNNiS,Good Morning and I am so sorry you are going through all of this. It feels to me like your trying to be the parent to your Mom by talking her down and out of her anger. IMHO your Mom needs help to as it seems she is very unhappy. I wish you had a counselor or someone you could talk to at school.
How about through your church if you are a member of one, could you talk to the minister? Is there a youth group in town you could join to get you out more and with people your own age. You need to have some peace and happiness in your life. When you see your PCP please discuss your home situation with this person. With the privace laws now, your PCP cannot reveal your conversation to your Mother.
Keep posting and vent away, whatever it takes to help you. :)Kitt