Hi NewMother - alot of people have sent you some wonderful advice on how to cope with this difficult period in your life but I'd like to add just one more thing. I am 60 years old, have suffered from anxiety, especially health related anxiety, panic attacks and depression on and off since I was in my early teens. When I had my second child my anxiety escalted to the point where I felt as bad as you're feeling - everything hurt, chest, stomach, etc. and I would have bet my life that those pains were real and caused by some awful disease. The fact really was, which I learned many years later, that I was suffering from post partum depression and anxiety. It was such a terrible time and I thought NO one understood how bad I felt inside - I ALWAYS had pain and/or shortness of breath and no one could convince me that it was just a result of depression and anxiety - I was convinced I was dying of something!
I do think it makes sense to have your concerns checked out by a doctor but I also understand what it's like not to have insurance because I was in the same position then too - so that only made the pain and shortness of breath WORSE because I knew I couldn't afford to have the tests I felt I needed so anxiety took over even more. I would be willing to bet, if you're a young, generally healthy person, that all these things you're feeling are a result of anxiety and depression - it's amazing what they can do to a person - and a fiance or husband who's never been through them will not understand what you're going through. You should at the very least continue to go onto this site and talk things through - there's amazing therapeutic value to this site - alot more than any psychiatrist I ever went to, that's for sure. And I can tell you that at 60 years old, I'm still healthy (although I still never think so), I'm active, I had a late in life child who's now 16 (and I had no post partum depression this time) and I'll probably end up being around til I'm 100 - and how sad it will be that I wasted all those years thinking I was dying of something that really never was. It's hard to talk someone like yourself out of it when you're experiencing those pains but hopefully hearing the advice of the great peope on this website will eventually be your best medicine to get you back on the road to feeling "normal" again. All the best of luck to you.
andwes...I put a title to your thread as it will get more attention that way ..IF you do not like title plz do go to edit on your post ( thread) and change it okay.......thanks hun.....Luvs ....LYN
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