I'm so sorry that you're dealing with such an awful time right now. You're right to be paying attention to what you need - different medication, colleagues off your back, and all the rest. Take time to take care of yourself. If anyone tries to pester or pressure you, you don't owe them an explanation. However, if it makes it easier to stop them by providing one, a simple and firm "I'm having some health issues right now, and I'd rather not discuss it. Thanks for caring, though." should do it. Folks may be taken aback some if that's not your usual reaction, but they ought to get the message and give you some space.
We'll all be sending positive thoughts your way. I hope you get some relief and much-needed rest soon.
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Dx: Agoraphobia, Anxiety/Panic Disorders, Barrett's Esophagus, Bipolar Disorder, Depression, Essential Tremors, Fibromyalgia, I.B.S., Mitral Valve Prolapse, Narcolepsy, PTSD, Restless Leg Syndrome, Acid Reflux, Sleep Apnea
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Good Morning and I am glad you slept well last night. I do not know what kind of job you have or if your union or what kind of short term or long term disability insurance you have but you remind me of myself. For 26 years I played the carefree, happy person on the outside when on the inside I was full of anxiety and depressed. I took meds too but in the end I had a major meltdown and to save face took early retirement.
Think of taking a couple of weeks off or talking with your physician to see what her/she thinks. Of course you cannot leave your dog...............it is your bestfriend. Mine have always been. they let you cry all over them and sit perfectly still as they know you need them. They don't talk back either. Sometimes we just need some down time.
Also I finally told my friends and co-workers that I had depression, they laughed at first as they thought, yeah right, you? It is not something you have to be ashamed of. It is hard to tell people but the truth gets rid of the moments of having to come up with stories on why you cannot donate blood.
I have walked in your shoes my friend. Take my hand, I will stand beside you.
Thanks So Much Kitt :)
I don't think I need to take disability because most of the time now I am doing quite well, much better that I was 6 months ago. Its just I still have bad nights, I think its more than just being tired from not sleeping, it causes, or is a symptom of, SEVERE DEPRESSION and very bad emotional instability, But when I have bad days I just can't seem to handle them now. Because I EXPECT to feel good, sleep good etc. It seems like these symptoms come from out of nowhere, I guess thats why so many of us think we have a medical condition.
My job is very important to me and staying at home would probably be the worst thing. I am very lucky in the sense that I work more or less on my own schedual, so If I can't make it I will not. I have gone home just to take a nap on some days and it has helped tremedously.
I am not faking it anymore, everyone else has mood swings and bad days so I can too. It just feels weird because it is not in my nature to be negative or moody. But I hae decided its worse to feel like a puppet.
Today I feel 100% better, I don't know if its because I pumped my blood full of Klonopin yesterday and slept decent or I am just on a rollercoaster. Sigh...I just want to maintain feeling good...I know you all know how that feels like.
Again, Thanks for listening. And yes my dog (and my rotten cat:)) are the most prescious things in the world to me, it amazes me their capacity for affection. I remember several times laying on my back either with a bad migraine or crying because I did not know what the hell was wrong with me, and my dog just planted her paws across my body and stood there, licking my face every few minuites, and she never moved until I did.
Good Morning Sleepy Head,Glad to hear you got a good nights sleep. It makes a world of difference if we sleep well on how we feel the next day.
I am so glad to hear your using your med as prescribed. You are making progress and I am so happy for you.
Please keep posting to us and let us help you, no problem is so big that we can't give you support and remember you are family here.
You're welcome - we truly care about you here at HW and want to know how you are doing. I'm glad the Amitriptlyn is working for you and you are sleeping well; getting a good nights sleep really is half the battle at feeling better the next day.
Keep posting and we'll continue to help. Glad you uare doing better!
You are welcome to use my excuse, I faint at the site of my blood being pumped out of my arm.......................and I am a nurse.
I also take meds, lots of meds.