Co-Moderator Anxiety/Panic Disorders
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Dx: Agoraphobia, Anxiety/Panic Disorders, Barrett's Esophagus, Bipolar Disorder, Depression, Essential Tremors, Fibromyalgia, I.B.S., Mitral Valve Prolapse, Narcolepsy, PTSD, Restless Leg Syndrome, Acid Reflux, Sleep Apnea
Rx: Abilify, Flexeril, Lamictal, Neurontin, Nexium, Requip, Ritalin LA, Rozerem, Valium
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Good Morning my friend and I know your feeling well. I called it plain old stagefright for years but together with my therapist I have learn that I have anticipatory anxiety and it is shared by millions of people so your not alone. You belong to a great group of members who have this very problem.
Anticipatory anxiety is the anxiety one feels before a performance, a speech, or some other task that is to be undertaken. Some also call this performance anxiety although this term is usually reserved for the anxiety felt "during" the task in question.
Well, I've made it through Day One. The presentations went fine, but it's now evening, and I'm exhausted and feeling a bit on the edge of an anxiety attack. I worry that my body won't function correctly, that I won't be able to breathe, and that's terrifying. It's become hard for me to go to a strange place if I don't know where the nearest hospital is, in case I think I need emergency help.
Thanks for all ofyour encouragements and good thoughts. I actually don't get nervous about being in front of people. My fears are all health anxiety related. I've had so many times during the past three years when I've felt I couldn't breathe, and even though we now know that it's caused by acid reflux, not some failing of my lungs or throat, I'm still terrified that it will happen again - and be worse, or kill me.
Right now my throat is a little tight, and I am scared. I know my doctors have been very clear that nothing is wrong with me that can truly hurt me, but three years of uncertainty and dashes to the ER are very hard to erase. I'm sure the intensity of my conference and the fact that I'm tired right now are contributing. I'm also sure Wen and others with reflux would remind me that stress/anxiety contributes to that flaring up more and therefore causing more symptoms.
It's just so tiring being scared, being always on the alert to whether my body is having a serious problem or not. I haven't taken any anti-anxiety meds today (I only take them as needed anyway), but maybe it would be wise to take something tonight, so that I don't have to keep fighting at this same level all day tomorrow.
I'm going to catch up on the day's postings now. I do hope you all have been having a good day.
PercyCat, wow..you are doing it tough this weekend. I think you are amazing for having such insight into what is going to help/harm you..
Maybe ativan isn't the right med, but for now that's not the issue..Can you check in the phonebook wher the nearest hospital is?? just for reassurance...(I do that when I travel)
As Nyliz pointed out, anticipatory anxiety is the pits, you will probably be amazed at the end of this how you managed to stay in the momenet and deal with the anxiety..but for sure it doesn't help now. I wish you all the very best of luck percy and I hope all goes well. Please, please let us know how you go
Percy Cat, You deserve a standing ovation..................cheers to you. I have the Gerd too and I will wake up out of a sound sleep choking on regurge, Scres me to death but I know what it is so I try to sleep on 2 pillows. I also try to avoid acidic foods within so many hours of bedtime.
You have so much to be proud of and sweety, don't worry about where the ER is, call a cab or if you feel your in dire straights call the O on the hotel phone.
Or come here and write it down. As far as the Ativan, 1/2 your dose and if you need to rest, give yourself permission too. I do all the time........hey I am worth a good nap.
You are awesome.........keep it up and hugs to you. :)