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Flychickvic
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Date Joined Apr 2008
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   Posted 4/13/2008 1:53 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi,
 
I just joined today, found the site in my panic disorder workbook.  Through counseling (which I entered in January after a miscarriage and ten years of panic attacks which became suicidal depression), I believe I have panic attacks due to being molested as a child.  I am having a really hard time dealing with and accepting this, my attacks are increasing and I have had to take Xanax, which I hate for the after effects.  Is there anyone else in this group with a similar history?  I am SO scared.  I feel like I am going crazy, like my skin doesn't fit my body, like this will never end and I will never be normal.  I want to be free of this, so I can't turn back and stop working through this.  My poor hubby gets asked a million times a day if I will be ok.  I need constant reassurance and I have every horrible panic physical symptom I have ever seen listed anywhere.  I can identify with the pulse checking post, I have that too, to the point where I have fingernail marks in my neck from checking.  I am totally terrified of having another panic attack where my heart beats like it will come out of my chest.  I know the books and my doctor say it is not dangerous, but I live in fear of it.  I started a beta-blocker today to try to stop the effects of the adrenaline on my heart.
 
Does it get better?  Is there anyone out there that has beaten this thing?  I am tired of living in fear, of the jobs and promotions this has cost me, of being afraid to be pregnant again, of what it does to my family and to me.
 
Thanks for listening.

badgenetics1
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Date Joined Nov 2007
Total Posts : 146
   Posted 4/13/2008 2:26 PM (GMT -7)   

So sorry for what you are going through, there are many here who have been through similar stiuations.  Sometimes it just takes something to set off the trigger of panic and anxiety.  Does it get better?  YES, for some with therapy, for some like myself with medication.  Don't be afraid of either.  We all have good and bad days, even good months-years!  I just try to get through the bad days and know it won't last forever.  And take the Xanax if you need to, guilt free, do not let your self suffer, it just makes the anxiety and depression worse.

Welcome :)

K

 

 

 


stkitt
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Date Joined Apr 2007
Total Posts : 32602
   Posted 4/13/2008 3:37 PM (GMT -7)   
Welcome to HealingWell and the A & P forum.  Yes people do beat anxiety all the time but please remember every member is different with their own backgrounds, and histories.  I believe I have seen members on every type of med and therapy that is being used by the Pdocs out there now.
 
I am glad to hear you are trying a beta blocker, I use Inderal daily.  I just take it and don't worry about it.  To me it is just part of what I have to do to be able to live a normal life.  I have had years go by where I was fine and no big issues.
 
I am so sorry for what you have been through and it feels to me like you are well connected to the medical world and receiving good care.
 
Anxiety is a disorder and not something anyone would wish to have but so many do not understand how difficult it is to live with this disorder.
You have joined a wonderful forum of members who know where your coming from and what your going through.
 
Keep posting and know we care.
Gentle Hugs
Kitt
 
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety ~ Panic 
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It is health that is real wealth and not pieces of gold and silver.~Mahatma Gandhi~
 


Flychickvic
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Date Joined Apr 2008
Total Posts : 2
   Posted 4/13/2008 3:43 PM (GMT -7)   
Thanks!  My current counselor is wonderful, I feel that she understands and will help me beat this.  She knows how miserable the therapy is making me right now, but she said once I stop practicing avoidance the healing can begin.  I sure hope so!

wen4003
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Date Joined Aug 2007
Total Posts : 1193
   Posted 4/14/2008 5:22 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Flychickvic,
 
Welcome to the Healing Well family, you will find that many members of this great community will be able to relate to what you are going through.
 
I am so sorry for your miscarriage, that can be such a traumatic event and in time you will feel that it's the right time to get pregnant again.  Now just isn't the time for you.  I am very happy to know that you are in therapy and even though it's tough (I know it is as I have been in therapy for a while for the same issue as you) you will get through.  But just remember that it will get a little worse before it gets better - when you get into the really hard stuff, it's hard being able to get through it.  But you can do it, lean on your husband for the support that you will and take the Xanax - it's not a crutch, it's just a way of helping you through this difficult time.  Remember, you can't do this all by yourself, so please don't try to do that - accept the help that is being offered to you (i.e. your therapist, your husband, the members here at Healing Well.
 
Please keep posting so that we can get to know you better and to help you along this difficult journey.  We truly care!
 
Take care and (((((HUGS))))),
Wen

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Howlyncat
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Date Joined Jan 2005
Total Posts : 24909
   Posted 4/14/2008 7:32 AM (GMT -7)   
Welcome
Yes there are many with simuliar issues you have posted I am a survivor of molestation......
It is definitely something that plays a big part in my a/p
I had to learn I was NOT at fault I DID NOTHING wrong he did
I am hoping you will stick around and continue to get support here
It is great to read you are seeing a therapist to help you thru this as well
I take Valium so I have no input on your meds I am sure if you are having issues with them you could and should talk to your doc about trying something else perhaps if you dont want those ones
It is very hard to go thru a miscarriage as well .I am so sorry
Be well and know you are defintiely not alone
Great input already given by above posters
Again Welcome
STAY WITH US

LYN


  DX With Crohns,Pyoderma Gangrenosum, Anxiety/ Panic and Other Disorders
 
Moderator @ Anxiety Panic..Alzheimer's..Co mod @ Crohns
 
   
 
                   
 

Post Edited (Howlyncat) : 4/14/2008 8:36:27 AM (GMT-6)


stkitt
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Date Joined Apr 2007
Total Posts : 32602
   Posted 4/14/2008 8:15 AM (GMT -7)   

Flychickvic
I am so glad you have a counselor that you have a trust relationship with and the healing takes time but I have gret faith that you will make it.

Take care and keep posting.
Kitt


 
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety ~ Panic 
Not a mental health professional of any kind
It is health that is real wealth and not pieces of gold and silver.~Mahatma Gandhi~
 

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