Dear Kitt..You are one of the most amazing people here at HW..actually I am a big fan of yours You give fantastic advice - things I would never have thought of...
Seems to me that you are being way too hard on yourself..sheesh..from reading your post it seems that you are spending a lot of time 'fighting' anxiety instead of maybe 'accepting' it and jumping into your little boat and floating on past it
You will be fine Kitt I promise..I have dealt with anxiety just as long as you aaaargh and we both know you can't go back to First Base coz we have already been there..We have skills..and we sometimes forget ('er hmm') - how clever we are, eh?
Small steps and you will be feeling better in no time
Keep us posted - and yes there are gonna be times when I need a 'pick me up too' lol.
Thank you all, I am really trying and practicing what I preach, but I am a mess. I took a nap with my dog. I know I have a tendency to set high standards for myself and I am my own worse enemy. Just hate this feeling.
Maree, yes babysteps it is. I will take babysteps. The worse part is not having any friends, they were all connencted to my work and when I retired they kept on going.
Tony you too are right, bad is never permanent. And Percy, thank you, you are a kind and generous person. Your words are uplifting.
Panic queen, I feel like I am the dowager queen of panic. Thank you for your support. I will make it, I just need to know someone is out there willing to give me a hand.
Thank you for the hugs and I so appreciate it. I see my Pdoc every month and she has switched my meds many times but I know we will be discussing meds again.
I will continue the struggle and I will try to enjoy the good days. I just have this buiilt in trait to be needed and with no job and no children at home I feel useless so I come here and try to help others. I am a care giver at heart and I don't know how to move on and not be a care taker and just do nothing all day.
Thank you for being here for me.
Thank you for your words of kindness and encouragement. What I know in my head is sometimes difficult for my heart to understand. I did talk to myslef today when I went to town and I had this urge to just keep on heading down the highway, to run but I kept telling myself that I am ok and I will be ok.
I am just feel so alone when the anxiety is so high and I look for friends and feel like I am not worthy of friends is why there is no one there. I know that is "stinkin thinkin"
I can't stop the tears, why me, I know the answer is why not me.........as I have been told for 28 years.........get a grip, so I will not let my family see me like this. It makes them upset and they demand to know what is wrong NOW?
I will be ok, I know that. Hugs
Aw Honey Bee,
You are truly a sweet and kind person. I am finding that my Australian friends here are so caring and how I would love to visit your country.
Your right, I have to find a way to let go of what I was doing and accept that I am still a caregiver but I need to channel my caring in other directions.
I have been looking into volunteer work but like you said sometimes just driving down the highway I have to keep repeating "I am ok, nothing bad is going to happen".
My new car has the satellite radio and I found the comedy channels so now I turn one of those channels on and I sometimes find myself laughing out loud.
Today I am going to research hobbies too as I have never had time for a hobby. I did everything through my work, volunteered at health fairs, placed automatic defibs throughout are town, worked with our EMS on education and planning Special education for EMS Week.
I represented our hospital on the County Disaster Planning Team.
Well that is history and like I preach, stay in the moment and let go of the past. So I will do my best to keep on moving forward and accept that anxiety is my illness and I will do my best to deal with it.
Thanks you so much for your sweet posts.
Thank you so much for your support. I need to practice what I preach and today started out a bit rough but I am in the moment now and leaving yesterday's anxiety in the past. I need to keep moving forward.
I do care so much for people and I am considering some volunteer work.
I am also looking at hobbies, not sure what it may be but looking at something to get me excited about getting up in the morning.
Thank you sweet lady.HugsKitt
Hi friend. Many hugs to you. It's been awhile. I just wanted you to know that I think of you. You are a very caring person that has so much compassion for everyone that comes into your life. You are truly a blessing to everyone you touch.
Thinking of you and wishing you are feeling better on this Mother's Day.
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Wow you are all so supportive and reminding me I do not have to be perfect and that I am needed is such a joy to hear. I am my worse enemy at times and I can't get stuck on the merry-go-round of anxiety and not know why.
I know volunteering is a good idea and I did look online at a couple of ideas. Each of you is inspiring with your sharing of how you cope that it makes me realize I am not alone in this.
Thank you is such a small way to tell you how much I appreciate you, all of you. I am doing better thanks to the love I feel when I come hear and read these posts. Many hugs and blessings to you.
You are excellent yourself you know with the support you give to the members and with your sharing. I am always glad to see you on the boards. I appreciate your special comments and I am moving forward again.
No more hiding out, I will go slow but I will never give up and I hope I can always help the members including you with anything you need.
Hugs to you.Kitt
I remember you and I thank you so much for your support and you are right, having support and remembering that it will get bettter has gotten me through this bad spell. I have had 2 good days now and I will continue to move forawrd and not look back.
I will slay the dragons as I meet them and do my best to keep the anxiety at bay. I also will let myself feel, and know that I will have some bad times but try not to let the anxiety cause me to freeze up and become so afraid.
I could write a book on the discoveries I have made about how much my retirement has taken ahold of my depression and dumped me so low but I have come to terms now with a lot of those feelings. They do creep back in when I am feeling down but I know I wear many caps and I am still a nurse even thow I am now retired from hospital/ER nursing. It took me a long time to figure out what I was so very sad about as people say retirement are the golden years and I was only finding rust.
I set my expectations of retirement way to high. I am learning now to not rush through the years but slow down and appreciate what I have. One of the best things I have is HealingWell.
Thank you so much for your support.