could this be anxiety?

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irhxcbcziuzxs
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   Posted 5/9/2008 11:53 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi, my name is Jordan, and i got a short story for you.
I have a diagnosed

Generalized Anxiety Disorder

Social Anxiety

OCD

ADHD

Possible Bi-Polar

for the record
 
I am not medicated

about 5 years ago, I developed tremors, irritable bowel syndrome, eye focusing problems, and my ocd and anxiety got worse. Eventually, over the course of what felt like forever, the tremors dissappeared, the irritable bowel syndrome went away, and while the ocd and anxiety stayed, it wasnt as bad.

about a year ago now, I ended up getting sick, lying in bed for a week straight, I developed some bad back pain, soon after that I did a crazy diet where I lost 40 pounds in 40 days. Still no problems, aside from the back pain. The back pain persisted, and so I decided to try out yoga...

After my first session, my anxiety and ocd came back full force, and i developed allergy type symptoms. So I decided to take some sudafed, I accidentally took 2 12 hour sudafed time releases. My tremors returned that night, and that was about 4 months ago. I tried yoga a few more times but was unable to hold a stretch without shaking pretty significantly. I didnt notice this before, but who knows, I do have very very weak muscles. All this was going on during very high stress of starting a business with a friend, who ended up running off with the idea for himself. VERY HIGH STRESS. Im actually usually so stressed to the point where im naseaus throughout the day.

Anyways, about my tremors... movement doesnt seem to be much of a problem, though opening pistachio shells feels a little clumsy, as does doing anything that really requires fine motor skills.

As I am sitting here at the computer typing to you all, if i raise my fingers off of the keyboard and hold them there they can shake pretty violently, or I will notice them shake If i hold them out straight and move my fingers from the knuckle, without bending the actual finger. Outside of this... I dont really notice it.

Both hands, left hand is worse.... also seems to get worse when I leave the shower... but doesnt seem to be affected much by a hot tub... thats inconsistent. I will shake slightly worse after working out, or I will shake significantly worse after carrying a bag of grocerys in with that hand, all clenched up or after playing guitar hero.

If I lay on my bed, and squeeze my butt cheeks together and raise my pelvis, I will shake, but then again I have no core muscles, If i have my legs on the ground and raise my heel, keeping the front part of my foot on the ground, after a while my leg will shake.

Heres the things I have noticed

Caffine does not make it worse
The Severity waxes and wanes, and can sometimes almost dissappear.
Alcohol does not make it better
It was a sudden onset
I had it before, and It came back
Zanax does not help it.
(ive seen it change directions, not often though)
holding my breath does not make it worse

These are the reasons I think I dont have Essential Tremor, and I am desperatley needing reassurance.

I also was diagnosed with Lyme Disease recently.

I also tried something recently, Because I have been playing video games and being on my computer 12+ hours a day, I considered a form of RSI, so I stopped typing for a few days, and the shaking almost drops down to nothing.

though i can still notice it a bit when trying to hold a box of a food and trying to read it.

My mother also says, that if im concentrating on something with my other hand, my left wont shake...

maybe she is just hopefull?

Im not paticularly ready to give up my life...

Im just getting back into dirtbiking, Im getting into rock/mountain climbing, and soon everytype of high jump activie where you plummet towards the grown, and I for a living start up businesses... i play guitar and video games, i love to fish... and im a writer.

i dont want to be am essential vegetable :-(

is that offensive? i hope not...

slow movements seem kind of jerky sometimes, but fast movements have no adverse problems at all...

for example, if i raise the heel of my left foot off the ground, doing heel lifts, the process of doing them, i wont shake, but as i lower them back down, the movement will be jerky, if i do it fast though, its not an issue..

im also a hypocondriac too, so im always looking for things wrong with me, and thats how i know its a sudden onset, if you know me, you would absolutley know i couldnt be having tremors without noticing them..

I also drink alot of aspartame.

Nuerologist thinks im a quack, Doctor thinks im a quack...

Neuro said i wasnt having any muscle degeneration problems, though he checked... because my arms will feel sore and achy, and weak probably from all the hand work i do, guitar, pc, more guitar, more pc, video games, writing.

the hand that shakes more, also tends to look more sickly, more pale...

i found that interesting.
 
Im also very tired alot of the time...

Post Edited (irhxcbcziuzxs) : 5/9/2008 12:57:15 PM (GMT-6)


jordaNZone
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   Posted 5/9/2008 12:16 PM (GMT -7)   

Hi there 'irhxcbcziuzxs'..there's a Lot of symptoms going on there - poor you..and I am wondering if I can even begin to help confused - however I was wondering if you had ever considered seeing a counsellor/therapist and getting to what's really behind all these physical symptoms..sometimes we think we have dealt with emotional stuff in our lives at the time of the event but really we have just swept it under the carpet..and it's not until it manifests itself in some physical way eg. illness and anxiety etc. that it becomes obvious that we have got to talk about it to let it all out and become well again :-)

I wish you all the best..and know that there will be all sorts of fantastic input from others here at HW to help you along the way.

Maree


 
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irhxcbcziuzxs
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   Posted 5/9/2008 12:31 PM (GMT -7)   
ive been seeing counselors and therapists for a good portion of my life, im not shy with telling people my problems... not much is said about my physical symptoms though

stkitt
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   Posted 5/9/2008 9:55 PM (GMT -7)   

irhxcbcziuzxs

Hello and welcome to the A & P forum........wow, you have a lot of things going on.  I am so sorry your going through all of this and I am intrigued by the different manisfestations of your tremors.   You are able to function very well even thow your sx seem to be quite severe at times.

I ride a Harley and i have the essential hand tremor.  If my anxiety is up the hand tremor is up so on days like that I don't ride and here you are ready to do some real serious sports, dirt biking, mountain climbing and you play guitar too.  You actually have all the same hobbies as my son :-) but he does not have any tremors. 

It also appears you have been through some extensive testing without any disease process identified  by neurologist.

I am not a expert on lymes but I do know they can have some very serious sx and may be very ill.  You may want to read in that forum. :)

I agree 100% with Maree, our emotions play a huge role in how we react. You have lots on your mind so I am glad you found us. It is good to hear you have a close relationship with your Mom too.

You will find many wonderful members here so keep posting. 
Take care

Kitt


 
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irhxcbcziuzxs
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   Posted 5/9/2008 11:10 PM (GMT -7)   
it looks like im ready to do all those things but i just cant bring myself to do any of them due to pain and or ... if having the ability... asking, why bother... why start something i will have to give up because of essential tremor.

so depressed :-(

jordaNZone
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   Posted 5/10/2008 1:50 AM (GMT -7)   
Hmmm..let me see...what to do...
Well, you could try just a little step forward and see what happens...
Or, you could stay as you are - safe and cosy...but always wondering if things could be better...
When the time is right you will make your decision :-)
Seems to me that now you are at a crossroad in your life..there is no doubt in my mind that it's gonna be tough..but, there is also no doubt in my mind that you Can take that step - and the feeling of power and achievement will be Fantastic! And you never know...after a while that tremor might just become a thing of the past...
 
I wish you well.
Maree
 
  •  'Raindrops on roses..'
  •  'Peace of mind will come to us when we are happy with 'not knowing'...
  •  'No more stinkin thinkin...'
  •  'It's not how we survive the storm..But how we Dance in the Rain..'
 
 
 
 
 
 


percycat
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   Posted 5/10/2008 2:17 AM (GMT -7)   
Welcome!

You've got a tough row to hoe right now, but trust that taking it just one little step at a time will get you through. I'm sure the Lyme's is exacerbating everything else that's going on for you and hope that once that can be brought under control, that you can concentrate on what to do next.

percycat

Howlyncat
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   Posted 5/10/2008 2:56 PM (GMT -7)   
Welcome to HW
You sure have a lot on your plate
I think seeing a neuro was a good step on your part
As for all the other things happening I would defintely be taking baby steps to get self into a better space.........
I know that many here will welcome you and try to give you input to help you out so please DO stay with us and get the support you need

As Jordan said you prolly do need to step out of your "comfy zone" and try things but again baby steps..great you are into rock climbing and other things
Welcome again and do take care

LYN


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Post Edited (Howlyncat) : 5/10/2008 4:04:28 PM (GMT-6)


machelle
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   Posted 5/11/2008 4:24 AM (GMT -7)   
i do the same thing like i was on a inversion table to help my back well when i was bent to hang down i started shaking bad all over, sometimes when i am standing i feel like i am vibrating, i wish i had insurance to get better testing for lyme, i also have muscle twitching bad, ibs too. its like any time you put a bind on a muscle they all start freaking out this is my daily life, i don't want to take a bunch of meds for something i don't have, i do have anxiety but these symptoms have my doc puzzled

getting by
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   Posted 5/11/2008 5:44 AM (GMT -7)   
HI there,

Just a thought, with your symptoms, you might want to read some on the fibromyalgia forum also. Unless you do think that it is lyme. Once I read about your pain and fatigue, it just made me wonder.

Check it out and see what you think.

Good luck,
hugs, Karen
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wen4003
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   Posted 5/11/2008 8:01 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi There Jordan,
 
You have a tremendous amount of stuff going on right now and it's a lot to have to deal with - whether or not you're truly a hypchondriac or not - you still have a lot to deal with.  You have also gotten some great advice from our wonderful members who can empathize with you.
 
I too have tremors but they are throughout my body and appear to be a side effect from one of my meds.  My right hand is the worst and I have days that I can't hold a glass without using both hands.  It's very frustrating to say the least.
 
Whatever you decide to do, I think the others are right - taking baby steps is the best way to go.  Although you really want to, you can't really expect just get to your "normal" way of life (they way it used to be) overnight.  It's going to be a slow process.  I wish you well and please keep posting to let us know how you are doing.  We truly care about you.
 
Take care,
Wen

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stkitt
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   Posted 5/11/2008 8:41 AM (GMT -7)   

Good Morning Jordan,

I feel your coming here and talking about your problems is a positive sign that you do want to move forward.  I am proud of you for getting this far and tursting us to support you.

You can do this but in small steps and no beating yourself up.  It takes a lot of courage to make a decision and than work toward your goal.

You are important to us so stick with us. :-)
Kitt


 
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irhxcbcziuzxs
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   Posted 5/11/2008 10:50 PM (GMT -7)   
 
here is a video of my tremors, sudden onset... sometimes happens with my right hand, but mainly my left
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