I have really enjoyed reading posts in this forum and have found them quite helpful. I was hoping someone could offer some sort of insight into some of the things I experience when I believe I am having a panic attack.
First of all, a brief history. I'm 24, had my first panic attack almost 2 years ago. I thought something in my chest had collapsed and had my poor father rush me to the ER only to have to a nurse tell me I was having a panic attack. Never had one before though I had a history of anxiety. I honestly thought I was going to die.
Up to date now, usually only stressful times or big changes bring on panic attacks. They almost always happen at night time. It's getting to the point now where if I am anxious I fear night. During the day I feel fairly normal, but as soon as it gets close to bed time I begin to worry.
My "attacks" have gotten alot worse lately with the recent divorce of my parents, a failing business, and problems in my relationship. The problem is, I get a very strong fear of going crazy. And I think that's because of some of the things I feel when I'm having an attack.
All the muscles in my body tense up and I feel like nerves are shooting off sparks in my brain. My body feels so weak and I feel like I could drop to the ground and start convulsing at any moment. I have never had a seizure but I feel like one could come on at any moment. Random images of letting loose of my arms to frail frantically or hit myself cross my mind and can not be controlled. In my mind it looks like a "crazy person" or someone who is having a seizure.
It gets to the point that I fear laying in bed as these thoughts run rampant. So I have to keep myself busy (usually on the computer) until the wee hours of the morning only to have to go to work completely drained and exhausted.
My doctor prescribed me Clonazepam to take. He said take 1/2 a .5mg tablet just as needed. But when I feel this way I get panicky about taking an unknown drug and how it will affect me.
Does anyone else feel symptoms similar to those that I have stated? Is it possible I'm dealing with more then just panic attacks?