Welcome to Healingwell and the A & P forum. I am so sorry about your Father. You said he has Thrombocytopenia, does he have an underlying cancer or what is the cause of his low blood platelet count? Only share what you are comfortable with.
I think you are grieving the loss of your marriage, your boyfriend and already looking ahead to your Father's Death and this is overwhelming you. Try to stay in the moment and don't dwell in the past and tommorow will get here soon enough. Spend time with your Father and don't think of him as being gone and how to sell the house. For now be with your Dad and make good memories. Hold his hand, he must be scared and so are you so reach out to each other.
Touch can be very comforting for someone that is very ill. They need a life line to hold onto so they do not feel alone.
I speak from much experience as I have lost many and I have learned with each lost how to better help myself and my loved one through the experience of death and grieving.
We have tons of hugs available here and you are more then welcome to as many as you can handle.Here are a few things to remember when your in the Panic Mode: It does not matter if you feel frightened, disorientated, dreamlike, or unsteady. These feelings are an exaggeration of the normal bodily reactions to stress.
Just because you have these sensations doesn't mean you are crazy. These feelings are just unpleasant and frightening, not dangerous. Nothing worse will happen to you.Let your feelings come. . Don't run away from panic. When you feel panic build up, take a deep breath and as you breathe out, let go. Keep trying. Stay there almost as if you were floating in space. Don't fight the feeling of panic. Accept it; you can deal with it.
Try to make yourself as comfortable as possible without escaping. If you're on a street, lean against a post or a store wall. If you're at the cosmetics department of a store, find a quieter counter or corner. If you're in a boutique, tell the salesperson you don't feel well and want to sit for a while. Do not jump into a car and go home in fear. Don't indulge in stinkin thinking, "Why can't I be normal ? Why does this have to happen to me?" Just accept what is happening to you. If you do this, what you fear most will not happen. Think about what is really happening to your body at this moment. Do not think "Something terrible is going to happen. I must get out." Repeat to yourself "I am ok, I will not die or lose control."
Bushels of Hugs to you.
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety, Panic & Depression *~*
Hello and welcome, I am so glad that you have joined us here and we will be here to support you.
It is little wonder to me that you had such a terrible attack, you have so much going on right now and are grieving for your lost future. It's okay to do that. Give yourself permission to be sad, but know that it will pass.
I know what you mean about being put on every anti-dep under the sun. I went through that too, and none of them worked for me. I take anti-anxiety meds and that helps keep me sane, and deal with flare ups.
You have been given so much great advice here Cheri, so I won't talk your ears of (too much) with mine okay?! As I said, give yourself time to grieve this relationship and of course work through the fear of things to come, but try and find something, just one thing to look forward to. It may just be a cup of coffee, or a walk in the sun, or watching something on TV. It seems simple, but it can make getting through the day easier if you have something positive to hold onto.
It got me through some of my roughest times.
I hope this helps you a little, please know we are here for you and we understand anxiety and fear (all too well). Keep us posted Cheri