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Kiyuri
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   Posted 6/7/2008 10:30 PM (GMT -7)   
I've been having these intense anxiety/panic attacks lately and I'm trying to figure out the cause. I've had one before a few years ago and ever since then I've been fine. I've always been a very anxious person and I worry all the time about everything.

I'm just wondering if anyone else has this fear of going crazy? I fear as though I'm going insane and may lose touch with reality. I have no idea why I have this fear but it affects me so much. I've had this fear for about 2 years now and I believe it may be the cause of my panic attacks. If anyone else has had this happen to them before, please respond. I hate this..

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   Posted 6/7/2008 10:40 PM (GMT -7)   

Kiyuri, welcome to HW.  I used to think I was going to go crazy about fifty times a second when I first had panic attacks, take heart.  It is normal to feel this way.  It was once explained to me by a psychologist that if I had the capacity to think I was going crazy, I wasn't.  If you accepted panic attacks as normal then you might be in trouble.  Please let us know a little bit more about yourself.  Do you take any medications? Have you seen anyone about this panic/anxiety?

Please know that we at HW A/P forum are caring, non-judgemental people who are living or have lived through what you are feeling.  We are here to help. Keep us posted now.


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   Posted 6/8/2008 2:07 AM (GMT -7)   

Kiyuri..Relax...You are not alone in thinking this - believe me eyes My Rough patches of Anxiety are usually set off by life events, 'stress' and stinkin thinkin...going to counselling and good meds have helped me greatly at these times.

Glad you have found us at HW :-) Look forward to reading your next post.

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   Posted 6/8/2008 7:36 AM (GMT -7)   
Kiyuri

Welcome to HealingWell. You are not going crazy, you have anxiety. We all have the same common problem here, we have anxiety, it does not have us. :-)
It does not matter if you feel frightened, disoriended, dreamlike or unsteady.  These feelings are an exaggeration of the normal bodily reaction to stress.
Just because you have these sensations doesn't mean you are crazy.  these feelings are just unpleasant and frightening, not dangerous.  Nothing worse is going to happen to you.

I agree counseling and meds maybe a help for you.  Please see you physician and keep posting to us.
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Kiyuri
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   Posted 6/8/2008 2:45 PM (GMT -7)   
Wow, thank you guys so much. It's so relieving to know that I'm not alone. I apologize for not saying much in my first post, it was late and I was tired.

Just to introduce myself.. I'm a 23yo female who has a pretty great life. I've had my ups and downs but I always considered myself a strong person. I've dealt with stress and worry all my life and I felt like I handled it pretty well - I've also had OCD since I was really little. I remember being about 9 or so and having to do these stupid rituals because if I didn't, I felt like something bad was going to happen to my loved ones. Silly, I know. But it felt like my mind was having an advantage over me, especially being so young - I didn't understand it. It took me many years to get over it, and I managed to cut my rituals down about 95%!

I had my first panic attacks a few years ago. I had one at a movie theater and now it's almost impossible for me to go see a movie without feeling anxious. My mom passed away a few years ago and since I'm a pretty spiritual person, I handled it kinda well. And a part of me feels as though deep down inside, I may be battling it. I read that most panic attacks are due to our subconscious - so I don't know. My 9mo niece had a seizure while I was babysitting her and it freaked me out. And my uncle is battling with AIDS and was given a month to live. So I mean, I have a lot to be stressed about but it's weird.. like I said, I'm a strong woman & spiritual, so I've always felt like I've been able to handle these things well. I don't worry about them so much but I feel as though.. deep down, I may be worrying and just don't realize it, if that makes sense.

I just can't seem to figure out why I'm panicking and how random they are. It's been 3 days since I had my recent panic attack but the nervous feeling hasn't gone away. I've always had a sensitive stomach and so even the nervous feeling is rough on me. I can't sleep or eat as well as I use to.

I recently found out I'm not the only one in my family who's been having PAs. Just in my immediate family, theres 6 others. All of whom are taking medication for it. I am not, I haven't even spoke to a doctor about it yet. I didn't know whether I should see a doctor or a therapist. Although I REALLY would love to talk to a therapist and I have plans to soon. I feel as though it will be so much help.

Again, thank you guys so much -- you have no idea how less worried I am now! *hugs*

edit: I should probably add. I, for some odd reason, has always had the fear of dieing. But after my mom's passing, I became really spiritual and death no longer scares me. But now I'm afraid of going insane, it's weird and I can't say WHY -- I just do. Even when I'm not having a panic attack, I still have that fear. I feel as though sometimes I just want to SCREAM and I don't know why. Thats why I mentioned the subconscious, I feel as though something is bothering me, I just don't know what.

Post Edited (Kiyuri) : 6/8/2008 3:49:01 PM (GMT-6)


Celey
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   Posted 6/8/2008 3:19 PM (GMT -7)   
Hmm... I used to have anxiety attacks, but not very often... and they'd kind of just come out of nowhere. I don't have them anymore (dunno why they stopped, they seemed to go away after I recovered from my depression, but now that I'm getting really depressed again, I wonder if I'll start having them again...). I used to have a fear of going crazy, too... but I could actually pin-point the reason I had that fear...

See, my mother is a clinically diagnosed schizophrenic, and because of genetics, I was extremely worried that I would end up just like her. It was one of the things that caused me to be depressed, too. I felt like I didn't have a future... My thoughts were that nothing I did mattered because I was just going to end up in a mental institution. I've since overcome this fear... did it on my own, in fact. I finally realized that... well... I'm not crazy now... and I need to make the most of things while I'm not crazy. And it also occurred to me that...

Hey... I might not ever actually go crazy. In fact, with everything that's happened in my life, if I'm not crazy now, then I never will be crazy.

Maybe I'll turn out to be wrong, later... But I always operate under the assumption that I am right. :)

Anyway, going to a therapist is a great idea... Hopefully, that'll help you get things under control. //^_^\\
I think I am being picked on by life, sometimes. But's that okay. Life and I are good buddies... I know life doesn't mean no harm. It just is the way it is. I can accept that.


Kiyuri
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   Posted 6/8/2008 7:38 PM (GMT -7)   
Thank you, Gramps. :D My brother is working for this lady and I met her the other day for the first time. She just happens to be a therapist - how ironic? :P A very sweet lady so I'm going to ask my brother for her number and hopefully see if she can help or give me a number of someone who can. :)

Celey: I'm glad to hear that you were able to conquer your fear alone. That takes so much courage! And its great that you are no longer letting it get in the way of enjoying life - I try to do the same. :D

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   Posted 6/8/2008 9:12 PM (GMT -7)   
Kiyuri, My counsellor saved my life, she really did.  She used to follow me home in her car to make sure I did it without PA. What a gem! I don't want to advocate anything, you seem really strong, but sometimes meds can help with recovery.  It is in your family and hence a bit genetic.  I never even knew it was in my family until I was 25. What a discovery.
 
I am hoping all goes well with you. Anxiety is a nasty fella we don't need lol.  It sounds like that therapist has stepped in at just the right time.  Let us know how you go. No-one deserves panic.
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Kiyuri
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   Posted 6/8/2008 11:13 PM (GMT -7)   
That's really nice of her to do that for you, nervymeg! I'm actually really looking forward to seeing a therapist/counselor. :) Thank you for your advice, its soo relieving!

I also was wondering.. Is it normal to have two panic attacks in one day and the next be totally okay? Well, it was actually two days later that I was finally okay to get up and actually be productive with little worry at all. I was just wondering if that is normal and even though I've been fine today and hopefully fine tomorrow - should I still get meds? Just in case I get another down the road. And do you take the medication every day or just when a PA strikes? Curious.. never been a fan of any type of medication, but if it's needed.. I'll take it!

edit: I also have been waking up feeling extremely anxious the past four days. Is that normal? Cause its pretty frightening waking up to that. :| A week ago, I had one of those dreams where you know you're dreaming and you're trying to wake up but can't. It was awful and freaked me out, I wonder if thats why I'm having some trouble sleeping..

Post Edited (Kiyuri) : 6/9/2008 12:34:40 PM (GMT-6)


percycat
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   Posted 6/9/2008 5:33 PM (GMT -7)   
Kiyuri,

Welcome! I've definitely benefitted from seeing a therapist, so I really hope that works out well for you too.

Different medications can be prescribed differently, depending on your doctor's advice. Some of us take certain meds daily while others take them on an "as needed" basis. If you're concerned about taking them at all, you may want to ask the therapist's advice as well. She can't prescribe them, but she may have some clearer information for you about them.

Take care!

percycat

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   Posted 6/10/2008 6:47 AM (GMT -7)   
Welcome
You or anyone may experience a number of Pa's during a one day period...........IMHO

Anxiety has no limits it comes at ya full force tries and tries to beat ya to the ground and the best thing to do IMHO is to FIGHT fight with all you have and then some
NEVER give in and let it win
Sometimes yes it will get ya down for a wee bit but come up fighting for your life because you really are doing just that ............

It is so sneaky ....so sly
can try its best to be our friend.........with a knife in your back .......

Find ways to deal with this DD self help tech like CBT relaxation ect in conjunction with meds or just tech's

I have to say you would
NOT know you were going crazy nono
Even if you were

NO worries
You have found us here and this is a great place to come for support and a family atmosphere.........
Stay with us and keep posting
read back posts as well

Take care and know you are not alone

LYN


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thirstyforchrist
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   Posted 6/11/2008 9:26 AM (GMT -7)   
I hear ya! Someone told me that the only thing to fear, is fear itself. THis is true in your case and mine. I do feel the same. I sometimes wonder if I should go check myself in to a mental institution. Not kidding. I feel very crazy and dissassosiated with the world alot. Have you talked to anyone about this? Like a professional. THis site is a breath of fresh air and has helped me alot, I just joined last night, but still. Keep coming here. There's alot of support. And I'm sure your not really crazy. Crazy people don't reach out for help like you are.

Howlyncat
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   Posted 6/13/2008 8:49 AM (GMT -7)   
That is so TRUE what you said TFChrist

Reaching out for help shows to all of us here and I know it would show a Pdoc or therapist that you are NOT CRAZY
IMHO

How are the 2 of you's making out
Wanted to know if you are finding HW
the great place that
I have and many others have in the yrs I have been here

Stay strong and keep posting
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laurar
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   Posted 6/13/2008 9:56 AM (GMT -7)   
I worry about going crazy all the time, too, and from talking to others on this forum I've been assured that this is a symptoms most of us experience b/c of our anxiety. A few things I've learned how to do in order to feel okay: I've realized more and more that worrying about going crazy only adds fuel to the anxiety, in other words it's a self-perpetuating cycle that usually ends up in a panic attack for me. My therapist suggested I start meditating, and it's helped me alot in terms of being able to control my fear around going crazy (which isn't to say that I don't still have bad days, but they are fewer and further between.)

Also, one thing I constantly point out to myself is that for all the time I spend worrying about going crazy, it never actually seems to happen! Yeah, I have panic attacks, but ultimately my friends/family/doctors continue to reassure me that I don't display any "crazy" behaviors, aside from talking to them about feeling like I'm going nuts. A few people have already said it, but if you were crazy, you would not be here seeking help. Allowing myself to believe that has really helped take the edge off for me.

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