I had a few PAs a few days ago and my anxiety has been extremely high for the past two weeks. I have no idea why it happened all of a sudden and its worrying me. I feared it could be something serious - an illness mocking panic attacks. I'm a worrier but I've learned to let things go -- now I have a fear that I think I'm "letting them go" but instead just burying them inside me. If that makes sense.. I feel as if I want to scream sometimes, randomly.. makes me feel like I'm crazy. I have plans to see a therapist soon to get to the bottom of this. I'm just afraid I have so much bottled up inside me that I'm going to go crazy once it gets out. :| Am I alone..?
And.. with my anxiety, I've been getting headaches and feeling really drained and weak. Is that even normal?
I know I've asked so many questions already.. but it seems as though the past few days I've been really worrying about
whats causing me to worry, so its like an endless cycle and I don't know how to get out of it. Whats really bothering is that.. well, let me try to explain this. I have had some really bad things happen during these past few years. Deaths, illnesses, and so on. I've always felt like I was able to "get over" or come to terms with the bad events. I learn from them and I move on. Since my mother's death, I learned how important it is to accept things as they come - if you can't change them, leave them be, and just move on. But I fear a part of me, deep down, I guess my subconscious, I feel as though I have a lot bottled up. Don't ask me WHY I think this, its just a fear of mine. Is this possible?? I can say 100%, although bad things have happened, I have a GREAT life and I'm really happy.. so why am I so afraid of having troubles bottled up? I don't understand it.. I have a fear that one day, it's all going to come rushing out at once and I won't know how to handle it. Is this possible or just a stupid fear of mine?
Post Edited (Kiyuri) : 6/11/2008 10:00:10 PM (GMT-6)