Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety, Panic & Depression *~*
As Percy pointed out you are making a HUGE commitment towards recovery. I really respect that. I loved what Fitzy said about not having to wait in the crowded waiting room. Maybe you could discuss this with your therapist as part of your treatment plan. I know how hard you have fought to get where you are today, and I belive you can keep going. AA isn't for everyone (especially if you don't like groups) but you can sometimes find good advice by reading the Big Book (the fat blue one) supplied by AA. It talks of struggles and successes. I find the stories at the back help me stay sane. I would reccomend getting a copy of that as a start for sobriety. I wish you all the best as always, please don't feel like a downer. You should see me some days yeah?!
You have come such a long way Paulos, really, I think you are great for getting through all these challenges. It will take time for your brain to get back to 100% normal. And what is that anyway?! Be gentle with yourself, things will come together for you, and congrats on the sobriety. That's just amazing.