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stkitt
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   Posted 6/29/2008 2:29 PM (GMT -7)   
Hey Sydnee,
 
I have started a thread and moved your topics all into one as it is much more efficient and saves bandwidth on the forum............Thanks for understanding
 
Sydnee said...
Though Born more sensitive than some Baby's and being overprotected by my late Father and Grandmother,most of my fears and Health Anxieties stemmed at an early age due to my Step-Mother.
 
She had her own set of fears,and I consider them to have been Phobia's because she had avoidance behavior.She wouldn't drive in heavy Traffic or on Snow and Ice.
 
When a very young Child she and my Step-Aunt scared me silly by putting me on Carnival rides like a double Ferris Wheel,Tilt-O Whirl,walking across a swinging bridge and Boat rides.
 
I had NEVER in my life experienced these things until they came into my life.Mother,my Step-Sister,Step-Aunt and her Daughter's enjoyed these activities.I on the other Hand HATED!
 
Mother blamed my Grandmother for causing my weight issues.She said Grandmother gave me Food to comfort me in the loss of my Mother,but I didn't become a lil Pork Chop until age 4.
 
I remember Mother taking me to the Doctor quiet often.Once she thought I was Diabetic coz I was drinking large amounts of Water.Another time she took me because of my weight.For some reason,I had the impression at a very young age that if we were taken to Doctor something must be wrong.
 
When I was around 11 she bought a Blood Pressure Monitor and always wanted to check everyone's BP.Being scared and thinking something was wrong with me made my BP be high when she checked it.
 
When Dad was diagnosed with Diabetes and Mother bought a Blood Glucose Monitor,I actually ran and hid until she put it away.

 
Sydnee said...
Kitt,
Childhood wasn't easy.After the death of my Biological Mother at age 1 Week and 4 Day's,I was the only thing Dad had left of her.
If something were to happen to me he wouldn't have anything remaining of her.Her death made Dad be extremely overprotective.
His overprotection turned into smothering then eventually to instilling fear in me.
He wouldn't allow anyone other than my Grandmother to Feed me.He wouldn't allow my Cousins to teach me to swim then when they were old enough to drive he wouldn't let them take me anywhere.
I kind of think my Step-Mother felt she had to take the very best care of me because of Dad's concerns..maybe she felt if I got sick or something happend he would blame her..

sydnee said...Walked down the sidewalk,walked over to a neighbors Yard,went out back to empty a flower pot to repot an Aloe Vera Plant and perched my big Bum on loveseat (without standing,walking,pacing) and had a 30 + minute conversation with my Uncle whilst he sat on Couch..am gonna do me best to take trash to receptable later today..
 
Thirstyforchrist said:
Good job Sydnee! I'm so happy to hear that you are making progress. You just keep on going girl!
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Terrific report Sydnee, glad to hear how well you did.  Just keep going, and stay in the moment. You are a winner.

Hugs

Kitt

Nervymeg said

yeah   yeah yeah Happy dance for Sydnee, you are an inspiration, so very happy for you sweetie tongue


 

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   Posted 6/29/2008 3:19 PM (GMT -7)   
Sydnee,

You have been making strides this week, my friend! Being able to sit outside for an entire 30 minutes is a huge step forward.

I suspect that your step-mom's attitude toward health did stir up some anxiety traits for you. I will lots of times focus my health anxiety not on myself, but on my cats. Thank goodness they're not impressionable enough for it to after their thinking (as if anything could affect a cat's view of the world). If I had had kids, I'm sure I'd have rushed them in to the doctor any time anything was just the slightest bit different.

Also, if your step-mom never took you in for regular checkups (and maybe she was embarrassed to if she took you in so often otherwise), then it's natural you would have begun associating doctor's with having something wrong.

Anyhow, bravo to you on those marvellous moves into the outdoors. You go, girl!

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   Posted 6/29/2008 7:13 PM (GMT -7)   

Sydnee,

As Percy put it, you are no longer taking babysteps, but HUGE strides forward. Please keep us posted about how you are going. You are an inspiration and a valued HW member, P.S. I'm still waiting on that manicure!!!!! :-)


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   Posted 6/29/2008 8:53 PM (GMT -7)   

Sydnee

Keep it up sugar and I agree you are making some huge gains on your problems.

I had a step mother too so I can identify with that. I had to have fillings in my teeth without novacaine as my stepmom did not want to spend the extra money.  To this day the dentist freaks me out. She also made me go to the dentist alone as I could walk there, I was 8 years old.

But that is the past kiddo and we are now walking down the road to a future full of happiness and learning to love ourselves.

Gentle Hugs

Kitt


 

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   Posted 6/29/2008 9:13 PM (GMT -7)   
Well, OUCH on behalf of you both! I haven't seen a dentist since I was 18.............long time

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ashleyf3
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   Posted 6/30/2008 6:05 AM (GMT -7)   
I just wanted to say congrats - I posted on your other thread also.

Blessings,
Leah

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   Posted 6/30/2008 7:49 AM (GMT -7)   
LIl sis
Thanks for putting this up
Glad to see a thread for Sydnee as she does have alot on her plate and has many questions ........

I know the members here will help as much as they can as always ...........

Take care Sydnee
I too believe you have come along way and made many a good step..........LYN
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   Posted 6/30/2008 5:58 PM (GMT -7)   
Sydnee..where are you? We miss you at HW.

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   Posted 7/1/2008 8:38 AM (GMT -7)   
Sydnee,
I hope that you are celebrating the 4th of July eating grilled burgers and watching fireworks. I hope your doing well. I will continue to pray for you. Please let us know how you are. We miss you!! ((((((((((((((((((((((LOVE and HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))))))))
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   Posted 7/1/2008 10:42 AM (GMT -7)   
Sydnee
I was going to move the other posts from your other thread
into here a this thread was made special for you from Sweet Kitt .........
for all your questions and with all you have going on

Kitt explains the reasoning behind this hun in her top post

I have answered your other thread as have others about abdomen pain


Thanks
If you need to know more about why then do email Kitt or myself
Emails are under our names hun
Hoping you feel better.......... really

Kitt and I had a nasty CRUD this past yr kept me in bed hurt to move my eyebrows even it was horrid......
Take care........LYN


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Post Edited (Howlyncat) : 7/1/2008 11:46:48 AM (GMT-6)


stkitt
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   Posted 7/1/2008 3:37 PM (GMT -7)   

Sydnee,

Hey there, we are all here for you and was hoping to make your thread run smoother by combining them as when members look back sometimes threads they are looking for get buried on back pages.

I hope you post soon. You know your friends are all here for you.

Hugs

Kitt


 

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   Posted 7/2/2008 8:25 AM (GMT -7)   
Sweet Sydnee!!
Where are you? We miss you! Please let us know how you are!
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   Posted 7/2/2008 12:46 PM (GMT -7)   
Hoping to see you post soon

WE do miss you ya know

Stay strong

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   Posted 7/3/2008 12:38 PM (GMT -7)   
Kitt and everyone,
As soon as I find time will individually reply each of you..wanted to post about my Doctor's Appointment and Day Yesterday..
I am PLEASED as punch!
I got my own Mail Yesterday,dropped by my Attorney's Office and met his Father and their Secretary..
After leaving their Office,I re-registered to Vote then went for my Doctor's Appointment.He Prescribed 2 MG Bar Xanax.
Before leaving the Clinic,I stopped at the front Desk and scheduled an Appointment for Blood Work and UA as it has been over 7 Years.
Went to the Choctaw Travel Plaza for a cold drink and after returning to Town went for a Cheeseburger (brought Home),but before coming back to my place paid Dad's Sister in-law a little visit.She was scared!OMG the look on her Face when she saw me standing at her Door was PRICELESS!
Got Home..cooled off then took Trash to the receptacle..stood out in Yard and talked with a Neighbor..
Haven't been out today except once..went out back to move 2 old rotten Mops out front..later this Evening or Tonight when it cools off am gonna take to the trash reseptacle then get my Mail..
I REFUSE to be a Prisoner in my Home any longer!!!
Am a little put off with my Sister Friend.I love her to pieces,but her ignorance really shined earlier.
She asked,"Why are you having Blood drawn and a UA if nothing is going on?"
 
 
 
 

 
 


 


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   Posted 7/3/2008 12:41 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Thirsty,
Lots going on lately..I read,but haven't had chance to reply responses,or reply other threads..

 


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   Posted 7/3/2008 2:29 PM (GMT -7)   

Sydnee

Hurrah for you, what a great accomplishment..............you get a huge gold star.  You did take control of your life and chased the anxiety and fear to the curb, now it can be picked up by garbage man.

I am  so happy for you and we are all glad to hear the good news.

Keep it up hun, we are on your side.

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Kitt


 

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   Posted 7/3/2008 3:11 PM (GMT -7)   
OH WOWWWWWWWWWWWWWW Sydnee, that is awesome. I am so so so sosososoosos happy for you. The hardest part is done and over.

Let the freedom begin. I'm proud of you girl.
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   Posted 7/3/2008 3:34 PM (GMT -7)   
Sydnee,

You are amazing! What a fabulous day! Let's celebrate your day of freedom and independence from anxiety! I'm sending lots of prayers and positive wishes that it just keeps growing for you. Hurray!


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   Posted 7/4/2008 8:10 AM (GMT -7)   

Hi Percy,

I've grit my Teeth,felt the fear and did it anyway.I deciced that no matter where I am,or how I'm feeling am gonna continue facing my fears and keep Fingers crossed that it gets easier as time goes on.

I sat on my Loveseat and carried conversation with my Uncle,but have been going outdoors more lately than I have the past 2 Years.

Yes my Step-Mother's attitude did affect me,however so did my late Father and Grandmother's.Trying to protect me harmed me.

I focus Health Anxiety not only on myself,but my Cat's and loved ones as well.My Sister Friend's Health scares the HELL outta me!I will probably be really bad to take my Child/Children to Doctor with every Sneeze,sniffle etc.

Also fear I will live at Doctor whilst Pregnant due to my Biological Mother's difficulties during her Pregnancy with me.Someway somehow I got to get a grip.

Thank you so very much for all your encouragement.Sometimes encouragement goes a long way :-)

 


 


 


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   Posted 7/4/2008 8:12 AM (GMT -7)   

Nervymeg,

Not boasting,but I HAVE made VERY HUGE strides forward.It is so unbelieveable!I never thought about stepping out my front door ever again.Thank you for your kindness.I never thought myself an inspiration.That makes me feel good.Bless you! :-)

P.S. I am SOOO ready for a Pedicure!My Tootsies are SORE!In fact my entire Body is sore.I haven't walked this much in over 7 Years!


 


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   Posted 7/4/2008 8:15 AM (GMT -7)   
Kitt,
Bless your Heart!I am so sorry your Step-Mother was cruel and heartless.My Step-Mother didn't treat me with cruelty..she only instilled fear in me.I'm trying to look at the past as just that the past and progressing onto the Future.


 


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   Posted 7/4/2008 8:17 AM (GMT -7)   
Nervymeg,
Honest..the last Dentist I saw was like 85.While I was leaned back in Chair and he was sitting over me he had a Booger hanging out his Nose!Each time he exhaled I feared it was gonna fall from his Nose!I freaked!!!


 


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   Posted 7/4/2008 8:18 AM (GMT -7)   
Thank you Leah..I wish you all the best too :-)
 


Sydnee10
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   Posted 7/4/2008 8:20 AM (GMT -7)   
Lyn,
I'm happy that a thread was made for me and understand the bandwidth,however it kind of makes me feel I'm being limited.
Oh I DO have a lot on my Plate!Things seem to be looking up though in more ways than one.Keeping Fingers crossed and saying Prayers.
Thank you for encouragement and positives.It has helped me more than ya'll will ever know.
Blessings,hugs and love to each of you..

 


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   Posted 7/4/2008 8:30 AM (GMT -7)   

Dear Sydnee,

You have broken the cycle and ovecome your fears.  You have shown real courage !  This is awesome and I hope you are celebrating your accomplishments.

You deserve to be recognized for the progress you have made in such a short time.   Kudos to you kiddo.

J J J  J  J  J  J


 

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