Bad thoughts with anxiety

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Raea
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   Posted 7/7/2008 3:07 PM (GMT -7)   
 I have a happy home life, financially getting by (but not great).  Have many things I love in my life.  Have NO desire to leave it.  But when my stress gets huge, like when i fell like i'm failing at something, or can't think about "one more thing", I have these visions or something.  alone, thank god)...WTH????  I DON'T WANT THAT AT ALL!!  Why is that down inside me somewhere and doing this crap?
My job?  stressful but whose isn't?
My friends?  One is great, the other requires some carefulness and work, but also very great
My family?  OK - distant, some past hurt, but don't like to dwell... and don't deal with them much
My partner?  Incredibly fabulous and love my life at home
Am I busy?  Yup, work, music (joy), a little dance for exercise, and a garden and some animals
 
The reason this is weird to me is that I can tell you quite honestly that I DON'T want to hurt myself, but these visions keep recurring.  Seems to contradict and confuses and scares me.  This is interferring with my life and I'm tired of it and don't have time for it.   
Thanks for your time, Raea
 
Edit
Raea, I edited your post due to HW rules, however I left as much as I coudl.
 
1. No discussion of any illegal activity or threats of violence. (ie. illicit drug use, including medical marijuana use, threats of suicide or self-injury, or threatened or intended physical harm).  Discussions of suicide or self-harm that are deemed negative and therefore potentially injurious to others are also not permitted.
 
Thank you
Kitt

Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 7/7/2008 5:07:08 PM (GMT-6)


stkitt
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   Posted 7/7/2008 4:35 PM (GMT -7)   

Welcome Raea

You've found a safe, caring , and reliable support community for people battling Anxiety and Panic.. We have many members here who will be glad to lend an ear, offer information, and provide support for people who need it.

From reading your post it looks like you have been seeking help but so far have not found a physician that you have developed a trust relationship with.  May I ask if you are seeing a therapist and a Pdoc as that would be your best comination to deal with the anxiety and the sx you were talking of.

I am sure you are feeling miserable with these feelings you are  experiencing and very confused. I would be too.

The meds you have been taking do take 4-6 weeks for the full effect and you can have side effects getting onto them but what you described does not sound like something you can tolerate and take care of your family.

Please know we care and I wish I had a better answer for you.  Perhaps one of our other members will be more helpful.

Just know you are a wonderful Mom and don't let the thoughts overwhelm you. Try to stay in the moment and stop the "stinkin thinkin" when it starts.

Gentle Hugs to you
Kitt


 

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peacesoul
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   Posted 7/7/2008 9:09 PM (GMT -7)   
K? is that you my friend?
The world breaks every one and afterward many are strong in the broken places
 


thirstyforchrist
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   Posted 7/8/2008 5:07 AM (GMT -7)   
Hey Raea,
I feel ya on this. I have the same thoughts and visions alot. And I have stress in my life but it's not bad enough for stuff like this to be in my head. Usually mine happen at work or while I'm driving, but the visions or thoughts come everyday and have no specific origin. I dont know why this happens and I am going to try and find a counselor today. I know you are not alone in this. I am with you. If you find any releif let me know! I'll do the same for you. Just stay strong and resist the temptations. I believe we all have a purpose in this life and maybe we just have to go through stuff like this to get to where we need to be. ???? My theory. But anyway, just wanted to let you know you are not alone. And this site is a wonderful place for love and support. Keep posting and let us know how you are. I will keep you in my prayers!
Love ya!
"There is hope for every man, a solid place where we can stand, in this dry in weary land, there is hope for every man... Jesus is hope for every man"  -Casting Crowns


Raea
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Date Joined Nov 2007
Total Posts : 98
   Posted 7/8/2008 5:44 AM (GMT -7)   
Kitt - sorry - sort of wrote in a flury. I do have a therapist, but what's a pdoc?

Hey Jen. Yeah, this have gotten a bit rough lately. Just when I thought i was on top of it! This is just one of those htings you're embarrassed to admit.

Thanks TFC - nice to know I'm not alone and I will let you know if I figure it out.

And speaking of job stress, gotta run, but will write later.

thank you very much.

stkitt
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   Posted 7/8/2008 6:15 AM (GMT -7)   

Raea,

Pdoc = pyschiatrist when I use it, some use it for either pyschiatrist to psychologist.

No problem, you post cleaned up well and I do understand how you can get on a roll and not realize what your posting may be not allowed on the site.  We have members as young as 13.

Thank you for your understanding.

Hugs
Kitt


 

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peacesoul
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Date Joined Jan 2007
Total Posts : 2446
   Posted 7/8/2008 6:48 AM (GMT -7)   
K. embarrassed with me? Oh please my friend. I've talked to you about my explosive diarrhea and my yeast infections. We are sisters sista

Want to talk? Want me to call you? I'm emailing you now.
Hang in there, Help is on the way. I'm getting my BatSuit on now and we'll fight this anxiety one palpitation at a time

love you
The world breaks every one and afterward many are strong in the broken places
 

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