Hi there angelwings..
Relax - you are not gonna 'snap' - you are in control - you know about these things and you have skills to calm down when you need to...All these horrible things have happened to other people - not to You - Yay
You have a wonderful life filled with great things like vacations, happiness, fun and laughter and people who love you...and this is what you need to tell yourself everyday..how about starting to write down three good things that have happened to you at the end of each day - treat yourself to a little self indulgence - after all you deserve it eh
Jury duty..argh! How stressful. I think you did wonderful on your holiday, and I'm so proud of you.
People who don't have anxiety/panic really can't understand what it's like (horrible) to live with it every day. But we sure do. Please feel free to post/vent/ask for support any time you need. We are all here to support each other and your successes are something we can all share (and those bad days too )