Hello AkiPuppy and welcome back.
I am Pink Grandma from the Hep forum. I am sorry for your loss. I happened to read your post and it hit a nerve. I too lost my husband last year in April. I also have to take a sleeping aid still. I hate it but when I don't I'll wake up 2-3 times a night and be all tired and grumpy at work.
I also have fibromyalgia and am currently fighting with my insurance to cover Lyrica. So like you I am in pain a lot. Seems like we have a lot in common.
I currently moderate the Hep forum and it has literally saved my sanity. Isn't HealingWell just full of wonderful caring people?
Take care, and keep posting.
When the going gets tough....the tough get going! Don't always know where I going but I get there anyways.