Hi. I just joined this morning....I feel so scared and desperate.
Several years ago I had some several anxiety/panic problems. I left a job because of them, I job I liked very much. It took months and months of my life, but finally last year, I same some major improvement. I was rejoining life, getting out with friends without fear, even traveling with minimal apprehension.
I was so relieved and proud of myself.
Then about one month ago, I was having dinner in a restaurant and BAM....panic attack. Out of nowhere and for absolutely no reason. I went home that night and put the covers over my head, exhausted (panic attacks take EVERYTHING out of me physically) and broken-hearted that after all my progress....I went so far backwards.
I didnt leave the restaurant, but it was SO HORRIBLE to stay there.....I've tried to go back to the restaurant with my Mom, I shared this with her, and cried through the entire lunch, couldnt eat, evidently now I can no longer go out to eat????? I know, only if I think I cant, but the fight back seems too hard right now.
Last night I had friends over to have dinner at MY house and didnt have full blown panic but lots of anxiety, the back of my neck gets so horribly tight, almost burning sensation......, ears ringing, heart racing......I couldnt wait for the entire thing to be over. My world is going to shrink to nothing if I dont get a handle on this.
Has anyone experienced such a set-back and if so, any tips to get back on track????? I've read the Claire Weekes books and other books, lots of self-help programs, I fought HARD to get some normalcy back in my life before, so Im not new to those types of things. I do take xanex as needed.....not much......I have a script for .5 mgs and I break these.....take approx 4 per month but took a whole one this morning.
Back to square one. Its devastating.