Thank you Mary..I had to reach down deep inside and gather all the courage I have inside to watch because I knew it would hurt regardless I watched it now or 10 Years from now.
Thank you for the Prayers..am having a really rough go of things right now..
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Thanks..I watched it the Morning after what would have been my Dad and Step-Mother's 33rd Wedding Anniversary.I felt it was time since it's been over 18 Month's.I also have Dad's Funeral that was taped using a Cam Corder,however don't have an adapter,so am going to ask the Woman who loaned her Cam to a Friend if she will copy to DVD for me.My Sister Friend told me she taped/honed in on EVERYTHING.What really troubled me other than seeing my Father's Coffin being pushed down the aisle,at front of the aisle and seeing him laying there was: I didn't hear not 1 tear shed..I am really afraid if I had went to his Funeral I would have been a wreck and so emotional that I probably would have had to be taken to Emergency to get a Shot.
That took great courage. You did it in your own time frame and that is good. Each person should be allowed to grieve in their own way.
I have a friend that cannot go to her Mother's grave site and in my mind that is OK. People deal with their losses when they can and how they can.
You did it and remembering their anniversary is special. Most people forget those date when someone dies.
You are truly remarkable............gentle hugs to youKitt
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Thanks Kitt..I'm very unhappy about a lot of my Father's Funeral arrangements and am most unhappy at myself that I couldn't get out of the House to make the arrangements myself.His Sister is one of these that requires the entire platform,has to make all the decisions and runs over People.She showed her "Hiney" at the Funeral Home the Day Dad's arrangements were made.She wanted Dad to be dressed in Jeans and I got my way as his Daughter and she didn't get her's.It's probably a good thing I wasn't there coz I would of punched her!
I've been to the Cemetery once since my Grandmother and Mother died.After Grandmother died,I couldn't bring myself to go coz it hurts to see the clump of dirt piled on the Graves.
In a non-boasting manner,I always remember my late loved ones Anniversaries and Birthday's..It is honor and respect to them.
Good for you for remembering and honoring your loved ones that have died. It takes great courage to deal with the death of a loved one and dealing with the relatives takes even more courage as you are so vulnerable at the time of the death of a loved one.
Kudos to you.
So sorry for your loss.
My fathers funeral last year was one of the hardest things I ever did!
I think you watching it will help you bring some closure.
I still sometimes can't believe my Dad is gone, my mom and dad's anniv was AUg 1 so it was a rough day. they would have been married 45 years.
It is hard but we will make it through it.
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