Haven't been here lately as I've felt pretty stable. Only the odd valium, not even daily as it was even a few months ago.
THEN - (2 weeks ago) I got the dream job offer of my life (have been doing affirmations and praying on it) & it pays really well and am moving acroos the country to Rendondo Beach to start work Oct 1st. I rented a a little cottage in 1 day out there on craigs list.
I thought I would be elated, jumping up & down - tears of joy, you know.......... really good about myself, The interview process was so long and arduous (including 3 online psch tests) & I never thought I'd get it. When I got the actual offer - I FROZE and went into a complete 3 day panic attack! Went right back in therapy & on valium daily & am little bit closer to having a grip on this huge change but can only work on my "to do" list in small increments or I start to palpitate.
Has anyone else experienced such panic when they "should be" feeling joy (as my father told me)???