it took my husband a long long time to understand that I wasn't freaking out on purpose. He used to call me really bad names and degrade me in front of his family. He said I was a crazy witch and many other things. HE used to get really mad at me and stay away from me while I was having a panic attack. I left him for a month and he realized that I was not being this way on purpose. Now he listens to me, and holds me and tries his best to comfort me during anxiety. He's very reasuring when I need someone to be realistic with me. It took five years but he finally is starting to get it. And I know it has to be extremely hard to deal with a partner that has anxiety. They dont understand if they've never had it. They think we are doing it all on purpose and are just trying to get attention. They dont get it that if we could just stop, and turn off the worries we gladly would. I think that if your with someone who refuses to be understanding and supportive of you then they are not worth being with anyway. If they really love you and care about you they will be there for you. IF not, it's time to move on. You will find that someone. And it may take alot of time before they understand anything about the anxiety. You should be up front with it though. Maybe you could print out some info off of the internet and let the person read it. I dont mean on the first date or anything. But onece you get comfortable with them. There is somebody for everybody. You may not find them until your 80 but I believe that you will be with that somebody. If its meant to be, then it will be. It wont be easy but it will work. I hope this answers some of your questions!
" When you feel like you're alone in your sadness, and no one in this whole world cares, and you want to get away from the madness, you just call my name and I'll be there..." Third Day