Hello and welcome to HW, you are among people who understand panic and anxiety here so please feel safe. I have found that the only way to beat panic is to challenge it, on your own terms. Set yourself small goals and stick with them. If you get a panic attack after two hours out of the house, try next time to stay out for two hours and five minutes. Sit through the horrible panic. I know how crappy it is, but just sit with it. Then go home and say to yourself "Ha! I beat panic by five minutes!", even if you felt awful you have challenged and won. The more you do this, with small, gentle steps the more confidence you will get.
Having said that it is also okay to have days when you just say to panic "oh stuff off I'm staying in front of the telly with some chocolate". Be gentle, but know you are in charge and that there is recovery. Many of us have been in your situation (me included) and have come out of it pretty well normal . I was unable to work on and off for many years but now I can work 12 hour shifts and come home with a smile on my face. Amazing! I don't know exactly how you feel, but I know what it is like to live in terror as to what the day will bring. Keep some hope, this can turn around.
Please let us know how you are going, we are here to support.
I am not going to pretend to know exactly how you feel, because everybody deals with anxiety/pa differently. My advice is to find something worth challenging your fears. I have had anxiety/pa for 1.5 years now. I have a very good job and after several pa's I strongly thought about quitting my career (that I had worked so hard to achieve) and finding something that is much less stressful and far less paying. Well after much thought, I decided that my children and family need me to keep my job. For this reason I confront my fear (driving in rural area's where there is no hospital within a 100 miles) nearly every day for my family. I also have told myself that if it is something medical and not anxiety (which I know it is anxiety) then just take me, because I am not dealing with this anymore. It helped that I got all of my financial affairs in order in case it did take me. But you know what I come home every night, sometimes very stressed and very tense, but I am fine, and my family is fine and they have food on the table and everything else they need. I agree with everyone else that have talked to you on this forum. Confront it......It is hard to do. But it is a MUST.
One of the best simple ways to deal with Anxiety is breathing. Simple things like inhale to your lungs full capacity, hold it, then exhale imagining all of the stress to leave your body with the air that is exhaled. Getting yourself to a quiet calm place is another way to help and be able to breathe. Imagining a beautiful scene in your mind, counting to 100, counting your breath and trying to slow it are all techniques that really do help.
Be at Peace
Do not look forward in fear to the changes of life;
Rather look to them with full hope that as they arise,God, whose very own you are, will lead you safelythrough all things;
And when you cannot stand it, God will carry youin His arms.
Do not fear what may happen tomorrow;
The same everlasting Father who cares for you todaywill take care of you today and every day.
He will either shield you from suffering or will give youunfailing strength to bear it.
Be at peace and put aside all anxious thoughts andimaginations. ~ St. Francis de Sales
Again a warm welcome to you.Kitt
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety/Panic & Depression& GERD Forums*~*