I've got a history of panic attacks. about 5 major ones in my life. I deal with a lot of anticipatory anxiety as a result when it comes to heights, social situations and public speaking. I've been able to deal with it though and it only comes up during public speaking and being in high or trapped scenarios.
I found out yesterday that my boss is flying me to a conference on short notice to speak in front of 250 colleagues and executives. Needless to say, I've got no idea how I'm going to react and it's a critical career moment. I'm not actually afraid of speaking and I can speak in small situations quite confidently. The problem is the physical reaction. My throat clamps shut and I when the anxiety creeps in and my breathing gets very shallow, making it hard to speak. That feeds the anxiety. That makes the anxiety and physical reaction worse.
I've got to figure out how to deal with this in a day or two. I'm not a fan of meds, but I've heard that beta blockers can help control the physical reaction. I take Xanax for flying and I've had the same bottle, mostly unused, for 4 years. I'm worried I might not be able to get a prescription on short notice.
Does anyone have any links to good resources, or opinions on beta blockers, or ideas of whether I'd be able to get a prescription if I needed one? This is a significant speech that I'll be giving, so I can't be hazy. I just want to control the physical reaction.