Hello and welcome to HealingWell. I am so sorry you are going through a rough time......coming here and talking about this as well as sharing it with others is the best thing to do.
We do not do any one on one counseling as we are not professionals but peers. HealingWell provides it's members with message forums and chat rooms.
If you would like to provide your email, please post it in your profile. I do hope you keep posting .
There is something comforting about baring your soul to the members of A & P and still being able to be anonymous.
Again a warm welcome to you.