Edit title for new members..........thanks, Kitt :)
Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 1/17/2009 10:34:30 AM (GMT-7)
Kitt, Co-Moderator: Anxiety/Panic & Depression& GERD Forums*~*
It's the quickest way to get to know about us..warts and all. We are all here to share, support and learn from one another.
im maz. im 28. my panic attacks began at 10yrs of age. i went undiagnosed until 14, when i became agoraphobic and had a nervous breakdown. i had 3 months off school, in a constant state of panic. it was without a doubt the worst feeling in the world. i had a very negative experience with a pyschiatrist who overmedicated me and 14yrs later i have permanent damage to my central nervous system- twitches, tremors, urinary retention.
i have a multitude of physical health problems. this has compounded my Panic Disorder. I also have mild OCD and i suffer from trichotilimania (hair pulling) as well as PTSD. my first pyschiatrist told me from his stuffy leather chair that i was the youngest patient he had ever seen and was one of the most severe cases- he told me i would never live unmedicated. i found this totally disheartening, but 14 years later, ive been medicated every day since my first consultation with him.
i now have a female pyschiatrist who encourages self pity and wallowing, which i dont enjoy doing for an hour. i have had severe allergic reactions to meds- been hospitalised, hallucinations, major heart probs etc.'
i am a christian with a strong faith that God will see me through this. I was able to go to university and get a double degree. i am a full time high school teacher in a very difficult neighbourhood. im now on zoloft and xanax which generally manages the day to day panic and anxiety although i am quite agoraphobic still- i have a comfort zone that i dont enjoy leaving.
i have had abusive relationships that destroyed my self esteem. i used to be skinny and body confident. now i am overeight and bloated by medication. i feel ugly and depressed by what i see in the mirror.
i wont be a victim. for too many years i let this illness control and define me, but today i stand up and say "no more". I give this to God and i thankyou for your kind welcome, the sincerity and comaraderie that i feel here.
God bless all who suffer with all variations of this invisible illness. it takes a pretty strong person to cope with what we cope with- maybe there is a greater purpose?
thankyou for allowing me to be myself.
Welcome to HealingWell and we are so happy to have you join us. Your history breaks my heart as you were struck with anxiety at such a young age.
May I suggest you fire your female pyschiatrist that encourages self pity and find one that wants to help you heal. If you are just sitting there for 50 minutes thinking about how bad you want to leave, it is time for a change. Of course that is your decision to make.
What a wonderful person you truly are............and oncology nurse. Bless you. My sister has ovarian cancer and we flew her into the U of MN Hospital on 8/13, She has been in the hospital most of that time. When I observe the empathy of the oncology nurses I am so thankful to have them caring for my sister.
Thank you for sharing with us and please know we care.
Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 10/23/2008 11:55:00 AM (GMT-6)
Hello and Welcome Ben,
We are very happy you found us and you will find the members of HealingWell very caring and helpful.
I had to edit your post per fourm rules. If you look to the right you will see forum links and Forum rules is the first link so if you would please read through the rules. Thank you.
It sounds like you were doing well as you posted "The therapy really helped and my symptoms did get better."
Have you thought of going back to therapy, some people stay in therapy for many years even if they only go in occasionally but it helps reinforce what they learned.
Please feel free to post a thread of you own and you will meet many of the members.
Great intro and thank you for sharing with us.
No need to apologize re the rules, many do the same. We do have members as young as 13 on the board is why we stray away from specifics.
We are still very glad your with us.
I've got cold chills from you story. My psychiatrist from his stuffy chair told me when I was 17 that i was too young to live with panic/anxiety disorder and put me on a dose of xanax that eventually escalated to 8mg a day. I had to go to re-hab to reduct the dose. It was awful. I am sorry that something so similar happened to you. I still have the shakes every day.
Enough about me though, thnaks for sharing that story with us, you can be yourself here, free from judgement and I look forward to getting to know you better. Faith is a powerful tool against anxiety, don't undermine your powers of recovery.
As Kitt said no need for apologies okay? Welcome to HW and thanks for sharing your story. Family can be a great support network and a great help in your recovery, but have you considered any other options? CBT therapy is a great tool for combating anxiety and it certainly helps me in my day to day life.
I'm sorry that school was such a miserable place to go. That can really effect your self esteem, it upsets me when I hear of people being put in a "seperate box" due to things like dyslexia. Grrr!
I look forward to hearing more about you, please feel free to start your own thread and join in with some of our fun threads. We like to have a laugh (and we could use some good scottish humour!)..
Welcome to the Anxiety and Panic forum. I am so glad you found your way over here. We love new members and thank you so much for sharing your story with us.
We are here to help you by supporting you and helping you identify ways to overcome anxiety. You are now family here with us.
It's lovely to have you join us here at HW. It sounds to me like you have a really positive attitude..so kudos to you. That's a powerful tool in fighting anxiety and depression.
Have you tried any form of therapy to help with these issues? I do CBT therapy and it really helps me turn my negative thinking around. We have some links to resources at the top of the page under the name Wen. In particular MoodGym is very helpful. Again, lovely to have you here, I hope to get to know you better. Meg